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Hello livejournal-land, how has your week been? I've been tired and clumsy and irritable (apart from Wednesday when I was irrationally happy and everything seemed lovely for a while), which is a shame. I burnt my hand and dropped apples everywhere and spilt water and melted plastic utensils on the cooker, as I seem to do rather often. I did go to sleep at 7.30am on Wednesday (/Thursday) though, so I hope it's just because of that. Rob and I talked about the world on the phone from 3.45am until then, what.
I want to do all the courses in the world! It's probably silly to do Art History AS (there's nowhere to do A level in a year, ach) and Sign Language as evening courses from September to June, as well as (hopefully!) a full-time job, but I want to learn EVERYTHING. I suppose I won't do the sign language as I don't actually have an extreme desire to and it's not relevant to anything jobby I might want to do. It would be great though, and it seems cheap and is nearby. Ah yes - as I mentioned a while ago the budget this year made A-levels (/further education) free for under 25s - but no-one knows anything about it! Learn Direct don't, the colleges don't and I can't find anything on the Dept.of Edumacation website. Help! Did the govt. make it up to make me happy with them for a while and not think I'd get around to looking into it, perhaps? I would think that of me, to be honest, but here I go proving me, ah, wrong. Damnit, I want free learning! 16 years of it has not been enough!*
I keep looking at lots of internships and wanting to do them, instead of paid work. There are a lot more interesting internships than jobs I could do. I might apply for a paid (minimum wage) one with the NFU. Maybe not, I don't know anything about farmers and don't particularly want to, but they'd love my Welsh roots. My degree results sort of reminded me that I actually have a brain, so could do something slightly less mindless than I'd had planned. The Jobseeker lady told me to apply for a job as a warehouse junior in New Cross, which made me pretty angry (but not at her 'cause then they might stop giving me money). Obviously want to get as many people into employment as quickly as possible, but, I AM RILLY EDUCATED THEREFORE I REFUSE TO DO THAT (if this sounds snobby then you/I can pretend it's because I think the taxpayers' ££ invested in my education should be put to better use). Even if I do go for a paying-the-rent job for a while I still want it to be for someone/thing good, charity or public sector. Oh oh ideals.
There was a something else I was going to ramble about. Oh yes, not being forced to think and talk (/try to avoid talking) about STUFF at uni has made me actually care about things, stuff, the world, again. Yay! I want to read about and know and understand and do everythingeverythingeverything again, instead of sleeping all the time. I am glad for the huge variety of stuff I learnt in college, but it really did CRUSH MY SOUL and my confidence and now, most of the time, I feel much better. And very grown up. I still want to go dancing and dress up every single day but I don't have any desire to get drunk and do mad stuff. I just want to be nice to people and look after the world and know things and smile and be happy. And get a rabbit.
I've just noticed the soles of my feet are rather black, so I'm off to the bathroom. I'm sorry for rambling. See some of you at Stay Beautiful. Night night. xx
*Edit 20.09.06: FE Reform White Paper says "The new entitlement to free tuition for all 19-25 year-olds studying for their first Level 3 qualification will be funded in full, while for other provision we will move towards a 50% fee contribution for adults who are not entitled to free tuition. We will continue to support low-income learners to ensure that they are not prevented from participating in priority programmes..." etc. So only first Level 3 qualification. Bah!
I want to do all the courses in the world! It's probably silly to do Art History AS (there's nowhere to do A level in a year, ach) and Sign Language as evening courses from September to June, as well as (hopefully!) a full-time job, but I want to learn EVERYTHING. I suppose I won't do the sign language as I don't actually have an extreme desire to and it's not relevant to anything jobby I might want to do. It would be great though, and it seems cheap and is nearby. Ah yes - as I mentioned a while ago the budget this year made A-levels (/further education) free for under 25s - but no-one knows anything about it! Learn Direct don't, the colleges don't and I can't find anything on the Dept.of Edumacation website. Help! Did the govt. make it up to make me happy with them for a while and not think I'd get around to looking into it, perhaps? I would think that of me, to be honest, but here I go proving me, ah, wrong. Damnit, I want free learning! 16 years of it has not been enough!*
I keep looking at lots of internships and wanting to do them, instead of paid work. There are a lot more interesting internships than jobs I could do. I might apply for a paid (minimum wage) one with the NFU. Maybe not, I don't know anything about farmers and don't particularly want to, but they'd love my Welsh roots. My degree results sort of reminded me that I actually have a brain, so could do something slightly less mindless than I'd had planned. The Jobseeker lady told me to apply for a job as a warehouse junior in New Cross, which made me pretty angry (but not at her 'cause then they might stop giving me money). Obviously want to get as many people into employment as quickly as possible, but, I AM RILLY EDUCATED THEREFORE I REFUSE TO DO THAT (if this sounds snobby then you/I can pretend it's because I think the taxpayers' ££ invested in my education should be put to better use). Even if I do go for a paying-the-rent job for a while I still want it to be for someone/thing good, charity or public sector. Oh oh ideals.
There was a something else I was going to ramble about. Oh yes, not being forced to think and talk (/try to avoid talking) about STUFF at uni has made me actually care about things, stuff, the world, again. Yay! I want to read about and know and understand and do everythingeverythingeverything again, instead of sleeping all the time. I am glad for the huge variety of stuff I learnt in college, but it really did CRUSH MY SOUL and my confidence and now, most of the time, I feel much better. And very grown up. I still want to go dancing and dress up every single day but I don't have any desire to get drunk and do mad stuff. I just want to be nice to people and look after the world and know things and smile and be happy. And get a rabbit.
I've just noticed the soles of my feet are rather black, so I'm off to the bathroom. I'm sorry for rambling. See some of you at Stay Beautiful. Night night. xx
*Edit 20.09.06: FE Reform White Paper says "The new entitlement to free tuition for all 19-25 year-olds studying for their first Level 3 qualification will be funded in full, while for other provision we will move towards a 50% fee contribution for adults who are not entitled to free tuition. We will continue to support low-income learners to ensure that they are not prevented from participating in priority programmes..." etc. So only first Level 3 qualification. Bah!