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I`ve been uber sketchy lately. I haven`t been taking my meds. My body depends on them, since they alter the chemicals in my brain, to even them out. But I`m a stupid jerk face, and I dont take them regularly. So my body is kicking my ass for it by making me over think. Like right now I`m sure everyone hates me. Cause I`m annoying. Its so confusing to know whats real and whats not. As in... think somethings a big deal..but its not. And somethings I think aren`t a big deal..but are. I`m a confused twitchy.
My fucking journal entries have been longer lately, cause I`m all crazay and messed up. I think I`m going to go to my theripist lady soon. She never really helped, but that might be because I didnt go long enough. But she tried to make me think of solutions for everything, and it just made me feel like shit, and made me even more confused.
To explain how this lady was, I`ll use the last conversation I had with her as an example. "cutting your self is a way of getting out aggression, and makes people feel better. If its not endangering your health. Its fine". I then starred at her for awhile not saying anything. she then says "Now I know you have an addiction, and have been working on self harming. But I think some addictions are better to cater too then try to stop. So maybe if you keep to it, you will notice on your own, that you should stop."
BULL FUCKING SHIT. honestly the dumbest shit i`ve ever heard.
so i`m still deciding if i should go back. she might tell me to shove razor blades down my throat and slit open my wrists and neck and call it a day.
My fucking journal entries have been longer lately, cause I`m all crazay and messed up. I think I`m going to go to my theripist lady soon. She never really helped, but that might be because I didnt go long enough. But she tried to make me think of solutions for everything, and it just made me feel like shit, and made me even more confused.
To explain how this lady was, I`ll use the last conversation I had with her as an example. "cutting your self is a way of getting out aggression, and makes people feel better. If its not endangering your health. Its fine". I then starred at her for awhile not saying anything. she then says "Now I know you have an addiction, and have been working on self harming. But I think some addictions are better to cater too then try to stop. So maybe if you keep to it, you will notice on your own, that you should stop."
BULL FUCKING SHIT. honestly the dumbest shit i`ve ever heard.
so i`m still deciding if i should go back. she might tell me to shove razor blades down my throat and slit open my wrists and neck and call it a day.