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Can't sleep.
Stream of consciousness:
Exams, balls, Tim, gross facial hair on my chin, cute shoes, t-shirts chopped up and turned into head bands, thoughts, living freely, understanding what it is to distract yourself, rubberbands, Starbucks (twice in one day), Stuart James Billmeier, the Guggenheim, Catherine Opie, masturbation, Adrian Saunders (he understands how to spell), Reggie Lynch, Oedipus, theatre history, Jill Stevenson, Red hair, Hug a Ginger Day, Jackie, New Jersey, Kearny, the Sopranos, HBO, Six Feet Under, Frances Conroy, Our Town, Lincoln Center, the West Side, MTV Music Awards, Britney Spears, celebrity documentaries, mockumentaries, movies, Milk, Sean Penn, Madonna, English countryside, $15 million estate, children, divorce, affairs, love, lust, hatred, indecision, fear, boys, love, understanding, chunks, chicken, lots of chicken, nuggets. thinking instead of writing. your scent. your scent which i will never forget and still remember to this day. i didn't wash those shorts for months. i didn't put away that suitcase for months, either. the cloudy day in connecticut. wistfully wanting something again. the doubt, the self-inflicted fear, but wanting to know so badly. what could be. what was. what can never be. what will always be. the time we walked about aimlessly, and found a pile of snow. wearing shades of gray. grey. solitude. serenity. Fergie. deodorant. showers. jocks. Superman. Spiderman. Comic books. Batman. Heath Ledger. acting. voice and speech. exam. practical. home. freedom. nothing. everything. lazy days. lazy everything. nothing. freedom and rest. relaxation. sleep.
goodnight.
Stream of consciousness:
Exams, balls, Tim, gross facial hair on my chin, cute shoes, t-shirts chopped up and turned into head bands, thoughts, living freely, understanding what it is to distract yourself, rubberbands, Starbucks (twice in one day), Stuart James Billmeier, the Guggenheim, Catherine Opie, masturbation, Adrian Saunders (he understands how to spell), Reggie Lynch, Oedipus, theatre history, Jill Stevenson, Red hair, Hug a Ginger Day, Jackie, New Jersey, Kearny, the Sopranos, HBO, Six Feet Under, Frances Conroy, Our Town, Lincoln Center, the West Side, MTV Music Awards, Britney Spears, celebrity documentaries, mockumentaries, movies, Milk, Sean Penn, Madonna, English countryside, $15 million estate, children, divorce, affairs, love, lust, hatred, indecision, fear, boys, love, understanding, chunks, chicken, lots of chicken, nuggets. thinking instead of writing. your scent. your scent which i will never forget and still remember to this day. i didn't wash those shorts for months. i didn't put away that suitcase for months, either. the cloudy day in connecticut. wistfully wanting something again. the doubt, the self-inflicted fear, but wanting to know so badly. what could be. what was. what can never be. what will always be. the time we walked about aimlessly, and found a pile of snow. wearing shades of gray. grey. solitude. serenity. Fergie. deodorant. showers. jocks. Superman. Spiderman. Comic books. Batman. Heath Ledger. acting. voice and speech. exam. practical. home. freedom. nothing. everything. lazy days. lazy everything. nothing. freedom and rest. relaxation. sleep.
goodnight.