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yea, so, I have to get off shortly....but because of......no other than...my mother. According to her, I should utilizing my time correctly studying for my SAT. hmph.
So, tonight, I have a meeting for 04 marching band season. YAY! Let's go Knights! -ahem- sorry about that. I have several friends trying out this year, which should make this year all the more interesting. You see, if all my friends do make it, who shall I share a dorm with?? Will you be the lucky person?? Or..maybe you. Hmm. I guess we shall see. You see, I'd normally share a room with ruby, but should I again? I have a friend who's trying out--well, an associate--and she doesn't have friends in band or guard. So, if I shared a room with her, I'm think Leslie would be with Katie and Ruby and Mary could be together. But then IF(who knows, though) Ash tries out? That doesn't mean to not try out, ash. I would like you to: ). Yea, everything will work out. No matter who tries out. Us smart kids will work it all out. yup.
Next, who am I currently not talking to??? Yes, Ms. Ashleigh W. Oh how it's been so long since we've argued...but fights/arguments seem to follow me where ever I go. No matter what. I try to duc k and dodge and hide behind corners but I'm never lucky enough. Eh. You know what? Once, Patience said to me, "You and Texiera stopped talking, then me and you stopped talking. I think it's you." haha. Funny how now, I truly believe it is me. I think I may read into to friendships a tad bit too much. How lovely. I have yet another flaw. I told Texiera that me and Ash weren't talking and she asked why. Yea, so I told her b/c Ash thought that she was kinda being replaced by her(Texiera) because I now have Texiera back. I think that kinda threw Texiera off--the back word. I didn't really explain it. I just said that Ash meant how me and texiera talked more and i somehow seemed to be with Texiera more and...little stuff like that. However, I didn't mention the part about how Ash said she would be there when Texiera hurts me again. I don't truly think Texiera knows that I claim she hurt me. And now it's like, did she really? Or am I "crying" about nothing?
Have you ever been afraid...or maybe hesitant about telling someone(sometimes your closest friends) something because you know how they are? Or what they'll say? Or how they'll react? And you don't exactly want them to react that way? Yea, I think it's kinda like that. I think I may know some or my friends too well to tell them things because i know exactly the face they'll make or what they'll think or what they do. I think this may perhaps be the reason people find out they have hurt me long after the crime is done...or the never truly find out. Ah well.
I think I'm going to go into the phase of just having...friends. No close friend, no weird friends, no *more important* friends...just...friends. I think if all my friends were on the same level, no matter what, life would be oh so much easier.
I also have decided to stop caring about certain things. -Ahem- For instance, how close I am to you. (Not you, Ash). Or how much you really want to be closer. I shall just accept things as they are and move on with life. Life IS short, you know.
Well, I guess I shall go now. Talisa, I miss you! I gonna have to e-mail you, k? So much to tell! I KNOW you got stuff to tell me;).
Well, it's been nice. Goodbye