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I posted my application form today. If I don't hear anything by next week I know I've been unsuccessful, as the assessments start in two weeks. It's a bit weird really, I know I've done everything I can now and I just have to wait. I've never really had to wait for anything important to me before, I never gave enough of a shit about my exam results or anything like that. I've never applied for a real job where there's a good chance I won't get it. And although in a way it'll make things easier if I don't get in (because I won't have to make any big decisions regarding uni) I'll be really disappointed. I know I'm capable of doing the job and I had more than enough good things to put in my application, but I also know there will be people who will get chosen ahead of me. I know it'll make me feel really shit about myself if they don't pick me. I suppose there's no use worrying about it yet.
I'm starting to decorate my room tomorrow. There's something really satisfying about scraping paper off the walls. It's good to have something productive to do as well. And it's also a good excuse to put off doing any more boring reading.
I'm sure I had something interesting to say.
I'm starting to decorate my room tomorrow. There's something really satisfying about scraping paper off the walls. It's good to have something productive to do as well. And it's also a good excuse to put off doing any more boring reading.
I'm sure I had something interesting to say.