LIfe list
So Brayden had a needle today and hes not doing so well so i think i'm gonna be up with hiim for most of the night but i was reading this forum of list to do before you die and it reminded me of the list i wrote like in gade 10 or maybe nine and i thought i would re-write it here and see if any of thosse things where succedded or have changed
Ok so my list which i didnt right the date but i had completed something in 2003 on it and wrote 2003 so its probably that year but anywho"
1) See my mom ( i did that , i started talking to my mom when i was 17 the summer before i turned 18 but it was just letters and phone calls but it didnt go so well .... though i thought i spent years and years preparing my self for it , it didn't help i think i was looking to fill that void like the someone love me please void and i thought she would but she didn't and i was still very angry at her and i would lash out and looking back i don't feel bad for it i think it was something i needed to do. But now i wouldnt say my mom and are super close but i dont hate her anymore and we can talk and she comes over every few months and it works for us)
2)meet my sister mary (did that also i think it was in grade 11 and i still talk to her and see her maybe one or twice a year and i think as she gets older we will have more of a bond)
3) a road trip with all my buds ( not completed but one day i would love to like drive to the east coast or the west coast or to florida or something)
4) go to australia ( still want too)
5) become a vegetarian ( ha ha not happening)
6) learn chinesse ( umm don't think thats gonna happen either)
7) meet my soul mate ( i'm not rushed to do that any time soon and i'm on the fence if there are actually soul mates)
8) get married ( want to but not anytime soon)
(9) have a boy ( done My brayden but i had written the name Xander but crossed it out yeah not liking that name)
10)adopt a girl from Korea ( umm i'm open to adopting a child one day)
11)write a book ( one day hopefully)
12) go to an eminem concert ( urg i'm so over him lol but he'll always be my first love... "tear")
13) get a tattoo ( done i have two now but i want more i want to get braydens footprint on my foot and i want to get a sunflower and a lone from a poem my grandma really liked)
14) learn to play the drums ( ok i doubt this is gonna happen i can barely play guitar hero0
15) beat mine and cassies x-treme badminton record ( we did it in 2003)
16) be a social worker ( i want to do something along that field like im doing the psw course in septembet but i think later on i might get into nursing)
17) never to drink ( ha ha failed that one i think that was because i was healing from dealing with my father but i rearky drink now and if i do its like a drink with dinner... being a parent to a young child i don'twant him seeing that)
18) go on a rollercoaster (wondergrad)
19) to stay in touch with all my friends ( so far so good..not as close as i would like but things can change)
20)to be truly happy ( i think i've done that i've kinda let go of certain things and am learning to not sweat the small things and yeah my life isnt perfect but its ok ... i have all i need and things will get better and better)
21) to accomplish all of my goals ( well i had some messed up goals so i don't know)
22) help people make a difference in there lives
23)make peace with my dad (i don't want to do that anymore... i don't want him to be a part of my life but i no longer blame my self for how hes treated me which took a long time for me to get to this point and i think thats all i needed)
24)eat at ihop
25) see a shooting star
26) beat mine and cassies new record which we did we made it to 17
26 to beat the newer record which was 19 lol
ones i would add
* Own my own house
* be more artistic
i think as ive gotten older i have more realistic goals
be able to help brayden with school
be a good parent and hopefully brayden won't hate me when he's my age
i want to do pole dancing lessons which may be silly and not because i want to get my freak on but i think it would be fun to learn
be more health conscious
not get in debt
own a buissness
have a daughter
travel
snow board
Ok so my list which i didnt right the date but i had completed something in 2003 on it and wrote 2003 so its probably that year but anywho"
1) See my mom ( i did that , i started talking to my mom when i was 17 the summer before i turned 18 but it was just letters and phone calls but it didnt go so well .... though i thought i spent years and years preparing my self for it , it didn't help i think i was looking to fill that void like the someone love me please void and i thought she would but she didn't and i was still very angry at her and i would lash out and looking back i don't feel bad for it i think it was something i needed to do. But now i wouldnt say my mom and are super close but i dont hate her anymore and we can talk and she comes over every few months and it works for us)
2)meet my sister mary (did that also i think it was in grade 11 and i still talk to her and see her maybe one or twice a year and i think as she gets older we will have more of a bond)
3) a road trip with all my buds ( not completed but one day i would love to like drive to the east coast or the west coast or to florida or something)
4) go to australia ( still want too)
5) become a vegetarian ( ha ha not happening)
6) learn chinesse ( umm don't think thats gonna happen either)
7) meet my soul mate ( i'm not rushed to do that any time soon and i'm on the fence if there are actually soul mates)
8) get married ( want to but not anytime soon)
(9) have a boy ( done My brayden but i had written the name Xander but crossed it out yeah not liking that name)
10)adopt a girl from Korea ( umm i'm open to adopting a child one day)
11)write a book ( one day hopefully)
12) go to an eminem concert ( urg i'm so over him lol but he'll always be my first love... "tear")
13) get a tattoo ( done i have two now but i want more i want to get braydens footprint on my foot and i want to get a sunflower and a lone from a poem my grandma really liked)
14) learn to play the drums ( ok i doubt this is gonna happen i can barely play guitar hero0
15) beat mine and cassies x-treme badminton record ( we did it in 2003)
16) be a social worker ( i want to do something along that field like im doing the psw course in septembet but i think later on i might get into nursing)
17) never to drink ( ha ha failed that one i think that was because i was healing from dealing with my father but i rearky drink now and if i do its like a drink with dinner... being a parent to a young child i don'twant him seeing that)
18) go on a rollercoaster (wondergrad)
19) to stay in touch with all my friends ( so far so good..not as close as i would like but things can change)
20)to be truly happy ( i think i've done that i've kinda let go of certain things and am learning to not sweat the small things and yeah my life isnt perfect but its ok ... i have all i need and things will get better and better)
21) to accomplish all of my goals ( well i had some messed up goals so i don't know)
22) help people make a difference in there lives
23)make peace with my dad (i don't want to do that anymore... i don't want him to be a part of my life but i no longer blame my self for how hes treated me which took a long time for me to get to this point and i think thats all i needed)
24)eat at ihop
25) see a shooting star
26) beat mine and cassies new record which we did we made it to 17
26 to beat the newer record which was 19 lol
ones i would add
* Own my own house
* be more artistic
i think as ive gotten older i have more realistic goals
be able to help brayden with school
be a good parent and hopefully brayden won't hate me when he's my age
i want to do pole dancing lessons which may be silly and not because i want to get my freak on but i think it would be fun to learn
be more health conscious
not get in debt
own a buissness
have a daughter
travel
snow board