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just a note: my period ended by Wednesday and I've been clear headed since. Still having lingering effects of the meds, but overall I'm starting to sleep better. I'm not feeling that sense of gloom and depression. I feel lifted - clouds free from the sky. what the hell? the meds were my last resort and seriously it made everything so much worse. I felt dead inside and couldn't function with the rest of the world.
Now I'm feeling anxiety in my tummy which is from the panic of not knowing where I'll be or how I'll get out of my lease. My landlord is gonna be a bitch about it me thinks.
My options:
Stay in Seattle, keep my shitty job, live through another dark, wet and cold autumn and winter and leave when my lease ends in March.
Stay in Seattle, get a new job, live through another dark, wet and cold autumn and winter until my lease ends in March.
Leave Seattle, leave my roomate to deal with the landlord, go back to Cali without any job prospects, but with lots of love and welcome
Leave Seattle, get the 2010 nurfers to take over my lease, go back to Cali without any job prospects but with lots of love and welcome.
Places I have applied to:
Seattle: Development Manager for a nonprofit BikeWorks (right down the street from my house in Columbia City)
California: Public Affairs Manager for Southern CA Gas Company. (eh)
Both prospects are interesting - they are certainly going to help launch me into that manager/supervisor role, though.
I think I will go see a movie by my lonesome. I need to extend this weekend as long as possible.
Now I'm feeling anxiety in my tummy which is from the panic of not knowing where I'll be or how I'll get out of my lease. My landlord is gonna be a bitch about it me thinks.
My options:
Stay in Seattle, keep my shitty job, live through another dark, wet and cold autumn and winter and leave when my lease ends in March.
Stay in Seattle, get a new job, live through another dark, wet and cold autumn and winter until my lease ends in March.
Leave Seattle, leave my roomate to deal with the landlord, go back to Cali without any job prospects, but with lots of love and welcome
Leave Seattle, get the 2010 nurfers to take over my lease, go back to Cali without any job prospects but with lots of love and welcome.
Places I have applied to:
Seattle: Development Manager for a nonprofit BikeWorks (right down the street from my house in Columbia City)
California: Public Affairs Manager for Southern CA Gas Company. (eh)
Both prospects are interesting - they are certainly going to help launch me into that manager/supervisor role, though.
I think I will go see a movie by my lonesome. I need to extend this weekend as long as possible.