again last night
had a dream about her last night. maybe not so much a dream as a recollection of memories strategically compiled together by my brain to tell me a story of sorts. im not going into details mainly because i dont want to, but I wish I never had to wake up. its saddening to know that she doesnt/wont ever feel the same way about me as I do about her. Likewise I guess its also sad that it has been years and I cant get over it. over her. but how do you get over the best you've ever known? If there was anyone else out there that was even half as awesome as she is it wouldnt be so bad. but none of these other girls can even hold a candle to all that she is. so I guess I will just slowly shuffle on in life. vaguely aware of the world around me, knowing that my place in it has been susidized to a size and shape i dont fit in. So i will continue to live outside the box that is.... here. wherever here is, or more like wherever I am.
music is my savior
music is my savior