...they dont love you like i love you...

Jul 09, 2008 12:14

it hurts.
but im going to do it.
im going to be strong.
im going to work harder then ever.
because i want this.
i want you.
i know i caused a lot of pain.
and i tried to fix it.
but im going to try harder.
this will be the last time i loose you.

i cant do this alone.
but i have no one to hold me.
i have no one close enough to keep me sane.
i only have you.
i can't ask you to help me with this.
because you are part of this.
how could i ask you to hold me while i cry over you?
while i dont eat for days and throw up nothing?
i cant ask that of you.

you will always be my friend first.
you always have been.
but now having to go back to it is just so hard.
i just want you to be able to stand by my side.
but im the reason you left.
the pain i caused, the hurt i inflicted.
none of it intentionally.
but that cant save me now.

im working hard.
so hard.
to win you back.
i will fight for you.
i will show you my feelings are true.
my love unconditional.
i can be strong without you.
but i indulge too much of the pleasure of you at my side.

no one will understand that i may need you more then i have ever needed anything.
but i will do without.
because you are important to me.
i want to see you the second i get home.
to be in your arms,
and have us know,
that these few days.
i made it.
i resisted.
i loved you.
and kept my distance.

to feel your kisses, so sweet.
to feel you hugs, so tight.
to feel your love, so warm.
and know.
that forever is ours.
if we believe.
and i do believe.
in my heart.
we will be together again.
we will be happy again.
and we will never need another source of happiness,
for we have each other.

"he loves her, it's as simple as that. And yet, it's more."

I will love you.
long past the time when my heart stops beating.
all i ask of you is to act back on your love,
and take me back.
ive told you i will work for it.
i will.
just be mine again.
giving you up hurts more then death.
because knowing you love love me
and yet, will not be with me.
knowing you loved me enough to ask me out,
when i already had a boyfriend.
and now.
we are turning away from each other.

i made you a promise.
and i will keep it.
i will change.
i will stop.
all i ask is for you to come back.
for you to act on your love,
and be mine again.

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. "

i love you.

forever, love, mike

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