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yeah im alive.
and alot has happened in the past two months.
really good.
and some not so good.
right now i feel like i don't have it in me to write it down. maybe next time.
i really want a girlfriend. someone to truely care about me.
i really feel like im back at that point where im ready for a relatinoship. but i just don't want anyone. i want someone specfic and im going to try to let things happen and take things slow but im worried about getting hurt. but after all it was my fault to begin with and its hard for me to not blame myself all the time.
and i really feel like i could give someone my all. after everything ive been through with girls, don't i deserve it? ive been hurt too many times and i fucked up the best thing that could of happened to me last year.
For once, why can't i catch a break?
I'm trying my hardest to be different, to have changed, to not mess anything up. But will it be good enough? Will i get a second chance? i feel so strongly that i do deserve it and i won't let anyone down again. I don't care what anybody else thinks, this is what i want.
No one really equals the one thats always on my mind.
and alot has happened in the past two months.
really good.
and some not so good.
right now i feel like i don't have it in me to write it down. maybe next time.
i really want a girlfriend. someone to truely care about me.
i really feel like im back at that point where im ready for a relatinoship. but i just don't want anyone. i want someone specfic and im going to try to let things happen and take things slow but im worried about getting hurt. but after all it was my fault to begin with and its hard for me to not blame myself all the time.
and i really feel like i could give someone my all. after everything ive been through with girls, don't i deserve it? ive been hurt too many times and i fucked up the best thing that could of happened to me last year.
For once, why can't i catch a break?
I'm trying my hardest to be different, to have changed, to not mess anything up. But will it be good enough? Will i get a second chance? i feel so strongly that i do deserve it and i won't let anyone down again. I don't care what anybody else thinks, this is what i want.
No one really equals the one thats always on my mind.