like a child

[twisted_stars21]

After my mom and my dad got a divorce, i never thought i was going to have to deal with drinking ever again. BUT ever since my soon to be step dad died shes been a lush. it makes me so mad cuz i cant deal with it. It comes to the point where whenever she goes out im already prepared for me seeing her drunk at 3 in the morning. So she comes home tonight, and i know shes lonely cuz tom died but she doesnt need to be willing to jump at any mans feet. Shes a mom, and needs to act like it. Its dissapointing. So tonight, after the yelling i tried to talk to her reasonably hoping that some of the stuff i said to her, she would remember. I dunno, i told her that i dont even feel like shes a mom sometimes... that shes some lady that i live with that drinks her life away. If i try to talk to her sober, it doesnt even make a difference cuz she has such a fucked up point of view, its ridiculous. She'll tell me that i dont understand her, or whatever she says will over rule anything i say and it pisses me off. Way to go mom for letting me re-live my childhood of my dad.

i dont think any of this made any sense to anybody but me.

i love bob

<3 chrissy