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Hey Guys,
its been an insanely long time since Ive been on this site and I feel pretty guilty about it but there have been a lot of thing that have been happening...
First I had my compt Fdisked to make it work faster. Sadly my compt is so old that i really dont think there is anything that can be done for it. Its really unhappy that Im asking it to play newer games. Poor thing. It would be very happy being with my mom who just wants to surf the internet.
Second. Ive had to put down my dog .... she was 15-16 years old >.< My mom and I have been talking about this for a while. Im sure Ive posted up things about it. She was getting much worse. It was one of those situations that we didnt wanna see what was happening to her, and how the cancer was eating her up. But we took a trip to niagra falls. We had to come home early because my grandma was getting worse in the hospital. Just as we got home my dog couldnt even stand up, so we took her on Monday morning.
The next morning, my grandpa called from Russia and told us that my grandma died. Its horrible we have one thing after another in my house as always. I feel so guilty (but death wouldnt be death without the guilt). I wish I could've been her one last time before she passed away she was such an amazing person. My grandpa was allowed to her one last time on his birthday, and he spoke to her and that must've given her the go ahead to just let go. >.< Its horrible, she died on my grandpa's birthday. So mom had to make an emergency trip to Russia.
When she left I was felt all alone in the house it was so weird and kinda scary to be that alone. I didnt realize how much Rosie added to that house until there was just no one. On top of that I had to deal with a the bank and lawyers to get the refinancing done on the house. That was about three days worth of stress...*takes a deep breath*
Sadly I couldnt go to Russia to see my grandpa but we are going to try to get him to come to america and live with us here. So hopefully I will see him soon. I ran away to Virginia to be with Tom and just hid away from all the stress that is happening.
I went to the massage therapist today. The girl said my muscles were so tight they felt like bones, and I have nerve damage from all the stress.
There's of course more going on... but thats for another time