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here is a conversation that emily and i had.. i am so depressed right now. i hate everything about my life, and i realize that i havent been happy in so long.. i just wnat to be happy. i want everything bad to just go away, and i want to be happy. like truly happy. i used to be the happiest person ever and everybody would always comment on it.. now people comment on how i always look so upset. what is wrong with me? actually i know whats wrong with me.. waht a fucking pussy i am. i need to fucking grow up.
EmmYbeach88: yeah but you're still holding onto a hope with him, you need to sit yourself down and say there's no hope of anything, your friendship is gonna die and you don't need him, even if it's not entirely true it's the only way you're gonna get over it
EmmYbeach88: you HAVE to let go
EmmYbeach88: cause you're not
meg6623: yeah i know thats the truth, and i tell myself that all the time but it doesnt help
EmmYbeach88: you have to think of it as being ok though, you have to think that you not having him around is going to be ok, you can't think about it as losing everything jsut cause he's not around
EmmYbeach88: cause he's not everything, he's far from everything
meg6623: i know
EmmYbeach88: i mean if you think about this year he was never there for you, this whole year he really hasn't been anything for you, and even though you might not be happy you've survived it
EmmYbeach88: so now you just have to let yourself be happy
meg6623: well with or without him i wont be happy so idk
meg6623: doesnt really matter
EmmYbeach88: well why aren't you happy?
meg6623: idk
EmmYbeach88: well that's something you have to figure out
EmmYbeach88: cause seriously meg you have one more year of high school then you're off to college, and if you waste this time unhappy you'll regret it sooo much
meg6623: i know, i have tried to be happy but im always sad
EmmYbeach88: well everytime you start feeling sad just think about it, just think about your life cause there's no time to be unhappy