i hope this gets back to you
ok. i really hope this gets back to you.
I tried. I tried soo soo hard. almost to the point of me looking like an asshole. and you just blew me off. i don't get it. i practically bent over backwards, and you looked the other way. i'm sorry, but i do believe that you are the one that owes me an appology. i do believe that you are the one that talked shit about me behind my back. however, stupid me (like always) bent over backwards to try and settle things. and you just still were a bitch to me. thanks for that. i hope you know i went home crying because i couldn't pretend i was indifferent anymore. i couldn't pretend i just "didn't care" because you know what?? i fucking did care. i fucking cared a lot. it killed me. it killed me the first time when i heard what you said about me. but it hurt more to know that you didn't care i wasn't speaking to you. and that when i tried to just be the bigger person and settle things, you still didn't care. you treated me like shit. you make me feel horrible about myself. whenever i am around you make me feel stupid and ugly and fat and gross and errrrrrrrrrrrr. you make me want to scream soo badly. finally mommy told you to back off me a bit, that i had changed and was doing everything i could to help out and the efforts were me sincerely trying. and that was almost 2 weeks ago. and yet i still haven't heard from you... so thanks a lot. thanks for saying you'd always love me. and thanks for proving that everyone eventually fucking walks out of your life.
ok.
thank you.
I tried. I tried soo soo hard. almost to the point of me looking like an asshole. and you just blew me off. i don't get it. i practically bent over backwards, and you looked the other way. i'm sorry, but i do believe that you are the one that owes me an appology. i do believe that you are the one that talked shit about me behind my back. however, stupid me (like always) bent over backwards to try and settle things. and you just still were a bitch to me. thanks for that. i hope you know i went home crying because i couldn't pretend i was indifferent anymore. i couldn't pretend i just "didn't care" because you know what?? i fucking did care. i fucking cared a lot. it killed me. it killed me the first time when i heard what you said about me. but it hurt more to know that you didn't care i wasn't speaking to you. and that when i tried to just be the bigger person and settle things, you still didn't care. you treated me like shit. you make me feel horrible about myself. whenever i am around you make me feel stupid and ugly and fat and gross and errrrrrrrrrrrr. you make me want to scream soo badly. finally mommy told you to back off me a bit, that i had changed and was doing everything i could to help out and the efforts were me sincerely trying. and that was almost 2 weeks ago. and yet i still haven't heard from you... so thanks a lot. thanks for saying you'd always love me. and thanks for proving that everyone eventually fucking walks out of your life.
ok.
thank you.