It's a small crime, and I've got no excuse

[twisted_haven]

I woke up this morning, with a missed call and a new voicemail from my dad. The VM being him asking me to call him back. I did, he didn't pick up. I'm almost certain it is pertaining to my attitude last night to my brother and mother both, as per the conditions of the house. Example: the fact that I didn't eat yesterday, for the fact that the kitchen was in such a horid state after my brother cooked, with grease and filth everywhere, and he refused to clean it up. And I couldn't open the stove due to the computer moniter he took from his room, and placed in front of the stove because its busted and he doesnt want it in his room anymore. All that, compiled with a dozen other acts of general laziness, and the complete inability of anyone but myself to give a shit, cause me last night to slightly lose it. No raising of the voice, nor any acts of violence. Just some harsh comments, and a small cleaning on my part.

That being said, I am all but certain that said brother called said father in a tiff last night, or this morning rather, and complained. And despite it all, I'll be the one who's reprimanded. Why? I should know better. I shouldn't be mean. I'm the eldest, and I need to set a good example... bullshit. It's really because I'm the only one who doesn't have a problem. I'm not medicated, I've never tried to kill myself, I'm not addicted to any form of substance abuse. And I'm the only one who forgave my father for leaving. So I'm the guilt free one. I'm the one he doesnt have to please anymore. So why should he, or anyone else in this family, give a shit what I think?

Simple answer: they don't.

Posted via LjBeetle