hellish
FD was all fucked up as I thought it would be. I was talkin to StK and JB who were out of the loop on most internal shit and they thought it was seriously depressing at times. I just stayed away from the people that I didn't want to hang with. I got alcohol poisoning eventually and fell down each step to camp (hey, it was muddy as hell). Eventually succumbed to sleep peacefully face down in a field. Then had one of those nightmare drives home. I a poor mustang that I had rented while my truck was in the shop. I have a new mp3 player in my room and burned a disc with most of the albums that I've been listening to recently. Now I don't have to deal with changing cd's. I just hit FF. I am giving up dealing with alot of the shit that's been pissing me off so it's almost manageable now. Surgery is next week but my doctor is blowing me off and my insurance is a state of confusion. People suck. I am thuroughly enjoying hurricane season and have dropped ouyt of all my environmental org's. Just chill out and enjoy the world come crashing down. It's def. time to buy a car as it took 70$ to fill up my truck yesterday. I'll be heading down to VT in 2 weeks or so to check into renting a house. I'm shooting to start school in Jan. Got fucked in my refi due to bad credit but at least I got it finally. There is a steadily growing list of people that I'm not going to talk to for a few years. And the high point of the summer was understanding a Tool lyric - 'eternal love is pain is an illusion'. It had been driving me a little crazy as he wispers the first part. I was furious that maynard could publish 'pain is an illusion' let alone think it. So that added to my peace of mind. And if anyone is wondering why I'm chipper it's cuz am at the 2 hour point from waking up and in probably the least physical pain that I will be in all day. That and ND's. lalaalala.
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