Feeling the need to express myself!
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I dunno whats going on with me. I dont want to be in North Carolina anymore. Im so depressed all the time, not to mention i cry a lot cause i miss all of my best friends! Im not trying to have a everyone feel sorry for me day, but its so obvious that i dont like it here. I never slit my wrist until i moved here, and now ive managed to do it 3 times already! Thats not good. I get so sad when i talk to heather or naomi, and they tell me how much fun their having, and how everything is great. I feel like im forgotten sometimes in Dale city. I know that might sound stupid but its the truth. I know if i left taylorsville (hickville) nc i would miss two girls that i have become best friends with for about 2 yrs now. I love barbara and erica, and if i could take them with me i would but i guess things dont work out that way. Im also looking at my future, and taylorsville isnt really the land of oppertunity. Heather and laura know exactly what im talking about because they have already been here. I know if i was back in dale city i could get a job and get on with my life. Me moving in with my mom is dead thing to me cause me and my step-dad do not get a long. Ive already kicked his ass once and i dont want to do it again. So sorry heather that isnt going to work out, nice try though. I cant even get a job in this hell hole because their are so many rednecks here and everywhere i go their are rednecks who hate gay people, and i cant deal with that shit everyday. Id rather kill myself then to deal with that shit every day of my life. Its already hard being gay as it is. I dont know what to do, it seems like my life has been so fucked up these past yrs. I dropped out of highschool. I dont have a job and im in trouble with my dad all the time. Its never going to end until i get out of this place. Im not saying everything in dale city is going to be peaches and cream but it would be a lot easier. I hope that noe, and naomi find an apt soon cause i dont know if i can take this anymore. I know it would be so much easier if i lived with them including heather of course. Not saying that i would have the easy road but then i would have responsibilities, and i want to grow up and become a better person.
-crosses fingers-
I dunno whats going on with me. I dont want to be in North Carolina anymore. Im so depressed all the time, not to mention i cry a lot cause i miss all of my best friends! Im not trying to have a everyone feel sorry for me day, but its so obvious that i dont like it here. I never slit my wrist until i moved here, and now ive managed to do it 3 times already! Thats not good. I get so sad when i talk to heather or naomi, and they tell me how much fun their having, and how everything is great. I feel like im forgotten sometimes in Dale city. I know that might sound stupid but its the truth. I know if i left taylorsville (hickville) nc i would miss two girls that i have become best friends with for about 2 yrs now. I love barbara and erica, and if i could take them with me i would but i guess things dont work out that way. Im also looking at my future, and taylorsville isnt really the land of oppertunity. Heather and laura know exactly what im talking about because they have already been here. I know if i was back in dale city i could get a job and get on with my life. Me moving in with my mom is dead thing to me cause me and my step-dad do not get a long. Ive already kicked his ass once and i dont want to do it again. So sorry heather that isnt going to work out, nice try though. I cant even get a job in this hell hole because their are so many rednecks here and everywhere i go their are rednecks who hate gay people, and i cant deal with that shit everyday. Id rather kill myself then to deal with that shit every day of my life. Its already hard being gay as it is. I dont know what to do, it seems like my life has been so fucked up these past yrs. I dropped out of highschool. I dont have a job and im in trouble with my dad all the time. Its never going to end until i get out of this place. Im not saying everything in dale city is going to be peaches and cream but it would be a lot easier. I hope that noe, and naomi find an apt soon cause i dont know if i can take this anymore. I know it would be so much easier if i lived with them including heather of course. Not saying that i would have the easy road but then i would have responsibilities, and i want to grow up and become a better person.
-crosses fingers-