You seduce in such fine style but don't try to fool me, because I can see through your disguise.

[twist_me_inside]

Unacceptable. That's the word that comes to mind when I think about my behavior over the last half year or so. Why it didn't hit me until mid January, I don't know, but I'm glad that it did. Things have been going great for the past month or so. It seems as though I spend most of my time at school. Each week I spend about three or more hours in correctives because I need to do good, and I don't want to settle for less than my best. I have art work in the showcase by the band room. When I finished it not too long ago, Mrs. Belf told me I had an A+ on it before I even finished it. She then went on to tell me that she would be putting it in the showcase and in the art show. I was very excited and happy when she told me however now I want for it to be taken down. I don't like it up there, it's too bright and gets a lot of people's attention. I've received good comments about it, I just don't like the attention. It's really not as great as everyone makes it out to be. Then again, I could just be over critical of myself. On another note, I strongly dislike the fact that people keep talking about me behind my back. If I tell you something that's personal or you know something most people don't I would really like for you to not run your mouth and tell others. If I didn't tell them, it's for a reason, they don't need to know. There's only eight more days until Valentine's Day, I'm getting very excited. I'm probably one of the few single people that really look forward to it every year. This year will be a little disappointing compared to last year, but it's alright. I found a guy who's practically perfect, it's a shame he's unattainable. I'll just have to find somebody with most of the qualities he has. I want to go see my grandmother. Being called fat repeatedly makes me question whether or not I need to be on a diet.

I think I'm starting to like him. Again. He makes me happy. It would be nice to see and talk to him more. I kind of hope his feelings toward me have changed some.