Ting, ting ting :)
I'm dizzy.. the whole world is spinning around me and it has done so all day. I literally crawled out of my bedroom towards the bathroom this morning because I just fell over when I tried to stand up.
I can't remember who I used to be anymore. It's sort of scary.... and everything except some glimpses here and there from before first grade in elementary school is totally gone. And I don't have any specific memories of stuff that happened before fourth grade O_o I started thinking about this today as some people in my class brought in baby pictures of themselves, and pictures from when they were younger.
Maybe I just keep a different memory system than other people? I used to think that if I blinked really quickly with my eyes, my brain would record the situation of what happened around me ^^; teehee.
Music always helps. Songs brings back memories easier than anything else. Some cd's I never listen to anymore. They are down in the basement now, I wonder what would flush through my brain if I listenend to them again O_o My favourite band used to be TLC :P teehee. and before that.. Spice Girls ^^ Even though I wouldn't admit it at first. I secretly wanted all their clothes and their shoes.. yes, mostly their shoes.
I've never really had long hair. Is that weird? :/ My mom wouldn't let me because she hated to have to brush my hair in the mornings. I kept screaming that she hurt me ^^; I remember that I jammed the brush into her eye once ^^;;; eeeeek. I got so upset that she kept pulling my hair and making me cry.. so I hit her in the eye with my brush.. ladida.. So.. yup, always silly boy haircut for me.. wohoo! >.< Maybe I should post some old pictures of me to show you all how terrible it looked :P
But the old me is gone. I can't remember what things I used to be interested in, I can't remember what my favourite sweater looked like, I can't remember if out old car was grey, black, yellow or red... Eeek :/ But I like the new me.. so.. maybe it's for the best?
My mom is still worried about me I think.. I think she wants to talk more about stuff... I talked to her on the phone, 20 minutes later she was home giving me hugs and asking me if everything was all right because I had sounded a bit strange on the phone. If she is this worried, then maybe I shouldn't have told her anything at all -.- because it makes me sad to see her worry like that.. Even though I keep telling her that everything is fine, I'm happy and my friends cheer me up.. it's like she won't believe me. So she clings to me and gives me hugs, feeds me chocolate and tell me to take things easy if anything is difficult....
Everything is strange today.
I can't remember who I used to be anymore. It's sort of scary.... and everything except some glimpses here and there from before first grade in elementary school is totally gone. And I don't have any specific memories of stuff that happened before fourth grade O_o I started thinking about this today as some people in my class brought in baby pictures of themselves, and pictures from when they were younger.
Maybe I just keep a different memory system than other people? I used to think that if I blinked really quickly with my eyes, my brain would record the situation of what happened around me ^^; teehee.
Music always helps. Songs brings back memories easier than anything else. Some cd's I never listen to anymore. They are down in the basement now, I wonder what would flush through my brain if I listenend to them again O_o My favourite band used to be TLC :P teehee. and before that.. Spice Girls ^^ Even though I wouldn't admit it at first. I secretly wanted all their clothes and their shoes.. yes, mostly their shoes.
I've never really had long hair. Is that weird? :/ My mom wouldn't let me because she hated to have to brush my hair in the mornings. I kept screaming that she hurt me ^^; I remember that I jammed the brush into her eye once ^^;;; eeeeek. I got so upset that she kept pulling my hair and making me cry.. so I hit her in the eye with my brush.. ladida.. So.. yup, always silly boy haircut for me.. wohoo! >.< Maybe I should post some old pictures of me to show you all how terrible it looked :P
But the old me is gone. I can't remember what things I used to be interested in, I can't remember what my favourite sweater looked like, I can't remember if out old car was grey, black, yellow or red... Eeek :/ But I like the new me.. so.. maybe it's for the best?
My mom is still worried about me I think.. I think she wants to talk more about stuff... I talked to her on the phone, 20 minutes later she was home giving me hugs and asking me if everything was all right because I had sounded a bit strange on the phone. If she is this worried, then maybe I shouldn't have told her anything at all -.- because it makes me sad to see her worry like that.. Even though I keep telling her that everything is fine, I'm happy and my friends cheer me up.. it's like she won't believe me. So she clings to me and gives me hugs, feeds me chocolate and tell me to take things easy if anything is difficult....
Everything is strange today.