And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love That have to say goodbye
So this is probably the longest it's ever been since I've updated...and this is such an overdue update...So much has gone on since the past update that I'm not even sure I can get it all explained and put out here...but I'm going to try. For everyone's sanity...including my own..
So I had this brilliant idea on how to get over Cacey..by going on as many dates as possible with as many different guys as possible...so I put myself or hot or not and bam...there were dates. A lot of the dates were just one and then never talked to the guy again because either there was no interest on my part or on theirs. Which was fine. But there were a couple guys that there was a serious interest...Steve, Michael and Alan were the winners so far. So I continued to go on new dates and still date these three. Well originally Steve and I had a good connection and hung out at least once a week. And Michael and I got along really well and talked a lot. We went out once and had a great time...and talked after that. Then there's Alan. Alan and I talked for the longest time the first night we met. I really liked him. He ended up coming back to my place and we ended up sleeping together...something neither of us planned on. So then I talked to Alan a couple of times during the next week and hung out that next weekend. So let's see...Steve got really busy with work and so we stopped hanging out. Michael stopped calling. And Alan and I ended up talking almost every day and hanging out every weekend. He took me out for the sweetest Valentine's ever. I really like him, a lot. And he really likes me. So what's the problem right? He leaves for Afghanistan for 14 months starting the beginning of April 2004. So it's not fair to either of us to be a couple while he's gone. But we're still gonna talk and date once he gets back. However, he wants me to date while he's gone so that I'm not just waiting for him. Which I will...but I'm still going to care about him. That's a given. I feel so safe and comfortable around him and we get along so well. It's great. I don't know if I've ever liked someone this much. Sure, I really liked Cacey...but I think Cacey was an infatuation. This is different. Because with Alan there's so much more on a deeper level. Like it's not just physical at all. Mentally we get along and there's a connection. As well as emotions. I'm not saying it's love. Because I don't know that. There hasn't been enough time. but I do know that there is something deeper between us. Like we have a level of friendship as well. Does that make sense? Hell, it does to me. Anyways, so today Alan is flying home for two weeks. It's the first time we're apart for a long period of time since we've met. But I think it'll be okay. It's a good test for when he actually leaves for 14 months. So yeah. I don't really know what else is new...
There's a brief update into my life...and now...I study..lovely
So I had this brilliant idea on how to get over Cacey..by going on as many dates as possible with as many different guys as possible...so I put myself or hot or not and bam...there were dates. A lot of the dates were just one and then never talked to the guy again because either there was no interest on my part or on theirs. Which was fine. But there were a couple guys that there was a serious interest...Steve, Michael and Alan were the winners so far. So I continued to go on new dates and still date these three. Well originally Steve and I had a good connection and hung out at least once a week. And Michael and I got along really well and talked a lot. We went out once and had a great time...and talked after that. Then there's Alan. Alan and I talked for the longest time the first night we met. I really liked him. He ended up coming back to my place and we ended up sleeping together...something neither of us planned on. So then I talked to Alan a couple of times during the next week and hung out that next weekend. So let's see...Steve got really busy with work and so we stopped hanging out. Michael stopped calling. And Alan and I ended up talking almost every day and hanging out every weekend. He took me out for the sweetest Valentine's ever. I really like him, a lot. And he really likes me. So what's the problem right? He leaves for Afghanistan for 14 months starting the beginning of April 2004. So it's not fair to either of us to be a couple while he's gone. But we're still gonna talk and date once he gets back. However, he wants me to date while he's gone so that I'm not just waiting for him. Which I will...but I'm still going to care about him. That's a given. I feel so safe and comfortable around him and we get along so well. It's great. I don't know if I've ever liked someone this much. Sure, I really liked Cacey...but I think Cacey was an infatuation. This is different. Because with Alan there's so much more on a deeper level. Like it's not just physical at all. Mentally we get along and there's a connection. As well as emotions. I'm not saying it's love. Because I don't know that. There hasn't been enough time. but I do know that there is something deeper between us. Like we have a level of friendship as well. Does that make sense? Hell, it does to me. Anyways, so today Alan is flying home for two weeks. It's the first time we're apart for a long period of time since we've met. But I think it'll be okay. It's a good test for when he actually leaves for 14 months. So yeah. I don't really know what else is new...
There's a brief update into my life...and now...I study..lovely