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GOSH I FREAKING HATE STRESS! OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHH! I can't even have one week of being content. One week! It gets so annoying and tedious but it doesn't go away. I have sooooo many things on my mind it's not even cool and they all climb on top of each other to succeed in the downfall of me. They like make this ungodly feeling in my stomach that feels like something is ripping out my heart and insides and putting them through a shredder. It's like this completely unbearable pain that won't go away and I despise it. I hate it when I'm emo but sometimes I can't help it and I am anyways. I try not to be and I try to be happy and to make everyone else happy however it doesn't work like that. I'm sick of hating the figure that I see in the mirror every morning, I hate the way I'm alone, I hate the way my family sucks. I'm tired of always being the one hurting. I'm tired of being me. Sometimes I just want to run away and never come back or at least not for a good while. It would be nice to get away from everything and clear my head. I could start over and not worry about anything. Everything is just entirely messed up and I don't know why. I don't know what I did, or what my family did, or what my brother or sister did, or anything. But someone must have done something because we're sure making up for it now. I find a few things that make me happy and they are attempted to get taken away, how sweet is that. The only time I feel better is when I cry because I'm relieving it all and I cry myself to sleep and in my sleep I dream. And in my dreams I am happy. One day.. someday my dreams will be real. You just wait. I WILL be happy. I WILL be me. Just you wait and see. I'll be better than ever, I will make something of myself. I'll strike gold. You just wait.