STRESS
SOOO this whole past week and this new one so far has been very very stressful and frankly I am sick of it. I try not to be a baby and let it go and not let it affect me. However, that doesn't seem to work. When I try and rid my mind of one of the things... another one just pops back in it so there isn't much point to that. I don't sleep, I don't do my homework, I don't pay attention in school, and very rarely do I have a good day. My grandpa has to have surgery, my 18 year old cousin is in jail, my aunt lost her job, my mom likes me make me feel like the worst daughter ever, she won't stop bitching at me about winterguard and not wanting me to do it and I just feel really not loved alot and it just sucks. I'm not gonna go into detail but thats alot of it. I don't really like to tell alot of people because I feel like I am complaining and I don't like to tell the world EVERY litle thing that is wrong with me. I try to stay smiling like I always am and like people know me. I love smiling and I do it regardless if I'm happy or sad. Even if it is fake sometimes. Blah. I really needed this weekend cus it was amazing and I had alot of fun and I got things off of my mind. Hopefully I'll have a good time at Cafe night and stuff so I can again get stuff off of my mind. I'm looking forward to seeing Andy and Bryan's acoustic project probably the most because I AM IN LOVE WITH ACOUSTIC GUITAR and they play good together. Me and Britt are going and we are meeting a bunch of people there. I'm like really excited haha. That's like the only thing I am looking forward to. Winter Formal is going to be a joke because I don't have a date. I just suck or something. I don't care. I've got other things to worry about. I'm so mad. I had this great period of time where I was perfectly fine and happy and all my entries were about good things and happy things and good times. Now everything is depressing. I've just got a lot on my mind. I'm gay and don;t remember how to change my font size on here. So if anyone cares to help me...please do so. And do yourself a favor. If you even bother to read this, why not comment and make me somewhat happy?