fuck you all and ur little faggyasses too
ok so im beginning to think im the only sincere person in this godforsaken place. im the only person who when they say there gonna do something does it and i dont think about whats in it for me ever. i try to make as many people happy as i possibly can and it all gets thrown back in my face. for instance i spent all night w/ fucking Edward Caufield idk why prolly b/c he wants to make sure hes not gay?? idk thats mean but like he along w/ everyone here makes me uncomfortable to be around and they all are mean. ok so i was supposed to go snowboarding today well i call my marvelous friend whom i went shopping w/ to get snowboarding shit and her boyfriend a hilarious version of the biggest sea of estrogen ever (constant man p.m.s) was all ur going and so here i am born ready for snowboarding and what do i do all fucking day? college applications whoo fucking hoo. so then Caufield calls adn is like well my friends are asswipes too that dont like to call/ talk/ see me ever so why dont we hang out?
why the fuck not i get blown off by my "best friend" who is doing one of my absolute favorite thing to do. sure i hang out w/ you. later i find out that Caufield is mad at manwhore (one of my other fav. ppl to be around) b/c he's doing the exact same thing that my friends are doing to me. purposly blowing me off so we watch movies. i get repremanded by Caufields ass hole of a father who tells me that if i ever walk into HIS house again w/ out knocking he'll "bark" at me. fuck that ur an old washed up army man, fucking ass hole. i need to find my own friends like just do something start hanging out w/ ppl just randomly find a random boyfriend so that theyll accept me again b/c i think the reason why im so easily discarded by them is b/c im like a spare tire, the extra button on a shirt, not needed until you loose the main one. i need someone to blow them off w/ to be like oh im sorry i cant hang out w/ you tonite im gonna be w/ "Zach, or Kyle" or some thing like that where itll be like ok well if you guys really dont need me then whatever i dont need you either i think they are all just liek well we know she depends on us we can leave here alone for now she'll always come running back to us. shit that is bullshit im like fucking parinod but u know what i think its completly justified. they always do this its liek oh yea sure you can come if you wanna and when i show up im pushed out of the circle out of conversation out of everything i hate it all all of it i just wanna go to college and get life done w/ be successful and come back here see all of them and be like ahh you have 4 kids fun.... ur still writing that book fantastic..... your still fucking freshmen amazing...... well i have to be off now you see i have some important buisness to attend to in Milan. caio.idk what i need to do i need to find somewhere i can go completly unknown and start over a little just for the time being i think its the only way that i can get ppl to pay any attention to me and u know what thats all that i want. someone to be like hey u know what i really like to hang out w/ her i wonder what she's doing idk lets call her adn check it out but no its like, well she never knows what to do so idk she doesnt talk and when she does she is mean b/c were all dumbfucks who can barley read. ahhah whatever im fucking done
why the fuck not i get blown off by my "best friend" who is doing one of my absolute favorite thing to do. sure i hang out w/ you. later i find out that Caufield is mad at manwhore (one of my other fav. ppl to be around) b/c he's doing the exact same thing that my friends are doing to me. purposly blowing me off so we watch movies. i get repremanded by Caufields ass hole of a father who tells me that if i ever walk into HIS house again w/ out knocking he'll "bark" at me. fuck that ur an old washed up army man, fucking ass hole. i need to find my own friends like just do something start hanging out w/ ppl just randomly find a random boyfriend so that theyll accept me again b/c i think the reason why im so easily discarded by them is b/c im like a spare tire, the extra button on a shirt, not needed until you loose the main one. i need someone to blow them off w/ to be like oh im sorry i cant hang out w/ you tonite im gonna be w/ "Zach, or Kyle" or some thing like that where itll be like ok well if you guys really dont need me then whatever i dont need you either i think they are all just liek well we know she depends on us we can leave here alone for now she'll always come running back to us. shit that is bullshit im like fucking parinod but u know what i think its completly justified. they always do this its liek oh yea sure you can come if you wanna and when i show up im pushed out of the circle out of conversation out of everything i hate it all all of it i just wanna go to college and get life done w/ be successful and come back here see all of them and be like ahh you have 4 kids fun.... ur still writing that book fantastic..... your still fucking freshmen amazing...... well i have to be off now you see i have some important buisness to attend to in Milan. caio.idk what i need to do i need to find somewhere i can go completly unknown and start over a little just for the time being i think its the only way that i can get ppl to pay any attention to me and u know what thats all that i want. someone to be like hey u know what i really like to hang out w/ her i wonder what she's doing idk lets call her adn check it out but no its like, well she never knows what to do so idk she doesnt talk and when she does she is mean b/c were all dumbfucks who can barley read. ahhah whatever im fucking done