Black Hole?
That's what I feel like I'm in. A deep, spiraling one. I don't even really know why. I've been depressed so long. Well, let me rephrase that. I've been really bipolar. Going back and forth from happy to suicidal. I guess it's because of my job situation, I really, really need to get over it and move on. I know I'm doing the right thing and Wes is totally supportive but man I feel like I'm a failure. I feel like I should stat until I find another job but I can't take it anymore. I've been having panic attacks and been actually sick from going into that place now. But I'm not being responsible at all. I'm actually being very selfish, and I'm ashamed of myself. Anyway. I have until Friday to find another job to go to. Sigh. I've never cried as often as I have in the last week. What is wrong with me. Fml.
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