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I'm not okay, i'm not okay, I'm not okay!
I keep trying. I try to hold my head up, I try not to let this get to me, but it's too much.
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God. I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like my throat is closing up. I hate this.
i looked at my weight on a bmi calculater and I'm normal. 18.5 to 24.9 is normal....I am a 23. Almost at the top of the healthy scale. Almost overweight by THEIR standards. FUCK. I worked so hard to be in the underweight catagory. I worked so hard and now none of it means anything.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how i am supposed to be okay with this. I am not okay with this. I am not okay with this!
FUCK I AM NOT OKAY WITH THIS!
I can't even face a mirror anymore.