Mar 16, 2005 20:22
I dont even know why I update on here, noone reads it... but ANYWAYS ....
I will just pick up where I left off I guess....
Brandon and I had our 8 month anniversary on the 5th and we went to American headcharge and Otep. It was kick mother fuckin ass shyt man ! I had to go in the pit with stevie ... we had so much fun.. got into my first "brawl" punched some bitch a couple times.. well as much as I could before me and stevie got pulled off the bitches hahahah ... It was fun and my whole family was very proud of me. hahahha ...
UHHH im still going to adult ed.. I am just about to graduate .. I will be done in May. I wouldnt have pulled htis off if it wasnt for Brandon. He motivated me to finish up school . And to actually go . I am doing it for me and him . So i can get out of this town and we can move in together. It is going to be the most wonderful thing. And I cant wait.
I've been doing alot of walking and jogging latley. Im trying to loose weight hehhe . Not much but I just want to feel comfortable in my own body. Brandon tries to convince me that Im beautiful, all of me is beautiful. But I just cant seem to agree... Maybe its just me . I have always had an issue with my weight when really there isnt much of an issue. Its only what I make of it .. whatever...
I am also getting a job very soon .. I need the money . I want to start taking care of myself .. Its time to become independent without my mommy buying my ciggerettes everyday and giving me her spare change for lunch at school....I also need to start saving up for when I move out on my own ...
I wish that I could see Brandon more. I dont know if i am sounding selfish or whatever but i really dont care. Brandon comes over every other day ...but it really feels like a week goes by when its really only one day I go without seeing him ... I love him so much and I could never be happier ... he is PERFECT for me . I love the way he talks, the way he thinks, the way he feels about things, the way he looks , EVERYTHING. HE IS PERFECT !! I will never look nor find anyone who makes me feel the way he does. And we both know that we will be together forever. There is nothing that will break us apart.
<3J-me