perspective.....
that's pretty much all i've beent hinking about lately. perspective on life, other peoples perspective, the idea of other people having different perspectives from me. it's strange to think abot the live's you 've affected and those that have affecte yours. there are people that i will honestly never forget, and they would probably have no idea that i even think about them. literally 20 years from now i will look back and remember their name, their face, and every little characteritic about them. and they have no iddea. then there's life....man, everything's changing. it's so strange to thinka bout going to college. it's not even the 'real world' yet and i'm already nervous. i'm so scared to meet new people. i'm horrible in new situations. i convicne myself everyone hates me right off the bat, and then i get shy and don't talk until someone talks to me, but they don't talk to me because they think i'm a huge bitch because i don't talk. they assume i'm snobby, when in reality i'm so insecure. i'm so incredibly intimdated by new people and new situations, i'm worried about my new roommate not liking me more then i am about me not likeing them.
i quit my job today. i gave my 2 weeks notice. this is the first time in like 8 or 9 years tha ti've gone without a job. i've never quit one job without another one lined up right after. i don't kno what i'm gonna do. i talked it over wiht my mum and i figured out i have enough saved up to go up to about 2-3 months without a job, which is how long iw ould hav to go if i got the job with her at her work in early july. but if i cna't get that job, i can't afford to go til sepetember without a job. and even then, i need to go upt o durham and see if there's a job up there. maybe i can get a job on campus at UNH...
i'm so scared.....i talk about how excited i am to graduate and to go off to college and move out...an di am..but i think everyone thinks i'm just like 'i can't wait to get outa here, i'ts gonna be awsome'...and i am, but i'm so incredibly scared. i kno everyones going through the same thing...but i don't care...it doest change how i feel...it's like, htey may be scared to be on their own, but i dont' think they understand ho wintimidated by all thes new thins i really am...
ok...the end
i just read through everyones jounral and saw that everyone was veting, and ranting and lkinda derpessy...
so i get my own rant....
i quit my job today. i gave my 2 weeks notice. this is the first time in like 8 or 9 years tha ti've gone without a job. i've never quit one job without another one lined up right after. i don't kno what i'm gonna do. i talked it over wiht my mum and i figured out i have enough saved up to go up to about 2-3 months without a job, which is how long iw ould hav to go if i got the job with her at her work in early july. but if i cna't get that job, i can't afford to go til sepetember without a job. and even then, i need to go upt o durham and see if there's a job up there. maybe i can get a job on campus at UNH...
i'm so scared.....i talk about how excited i am to graduate and to go off to college and move out...an di am..but i think everyone thinks i'm just like 'i can't wait to get outa here, i'ts gonna be awsome'...and i am, but i'm so incredibly scared. i kno everyones going through the same thing...but i don't care...it doest change how i feel...it's like, htey may be scared to be on their own, but i dont' think they understand ho wintimidated by all thes new thins i really am...
ok...the end
i just read through everyones jounral and saw that everyone was veting, and ranting and lkinda derpessy...
so i get my own rant....