that made me cry. i have a list of so many silly little things i did with Dan. I love him with all of my heart and he has all of my soul. he'll never bw able to fathom how deep my feelings for him really are. he'll never realize how many times i've thought silly thoughts of being with him forever. how many times i've pictured us in 10 years. happy and still living life the way we want and smiling. the other night he walked out of the movies behind me with his arms holding me so tight. i loved it and everything always feels so perfect when we are together. i had tears in my eyes but he didn't notice. i hid my face from him until they were gone. when we got into the van he kissed me with such determination...the same way he kissed me for the first time in Collingswood. I can never forget a single moment i spent with him and although we are still seeing each other...i wish i could still call him mine. Its not the important part though. what is important are feelings we have....the emotions we share....and the way we look at each other. he makes me smile and takes care of me. he's everything i'v ever wanted. i would never ask for more. i can't let go of him. i wanted to a couple weeks ago. he hurt me worse than i've ever been hurt before. but i see the good in him. just because he did one thing to make me feel like i was nothing to him, i know it isn't the case. i see past the facts. i see what's in his heart.
i could marry him. but i'm only 17. we have plenty of time to just make ourselves happy without worrying about where we will go.
i know all about loving someone with every ounce of blood that pumps through your broken heart. but the wounds heal. atleast mine have. your situation is a bit different. but i wish you the best of luck with everything. make yourself happy.
thank you ashley. you know how i feel on your situation. don't let him go. that was a lovely comment, you know i love reading these sorts of things. because you know i'm a fairy tale kinda girl. everything will be okay. i love you. ..mon petit chou. =)
i won't let him go. i just can't. he's my soulmate Katie. we were meant to be together. all the silly things....dancing in the kitchen, playing with bouncy balls, singing together in the van, food fights.....god they are the fuckin best.
i wish i knew if he felt even half of what I feel for him. i wish he would just tell me how much he cares. i know he cares a whole fuckin lot. but....sometimes i wish i had something in writing. or heard him speak of how he enjoys all the little things as much as i do. but whether he says it or not....i know he cares.
i'm not good enough for him and i know he deserves better. i feel selfish as fuck not letting him go. but he's the best thing that has ever came into my life. i'd be foolish to say goodbye.
god i just want him to hold me and for him to fall asleep with his head resting against mine like he did on Sunday. it felt amazing. he is amazing. we are amazing. and what we have is beyond amazing.
i could marry him. but i'm only 17. we have plenty of time to just make ourselves happy without worrying about where we will go.
i know all about loving someone with every ounce of blood that pumps through your broken heart. but the wounds heal. atleast mine have. your situation is a bit different. but i wish you the best of luck with everything. make yourself happy.
happy birthday k-dawg!!
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Ashley
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you know how i feel on your situation. don't let him go.
that was a lovely comment, you know i love reading these sorts of things. because you know i'm a fairy tale kinda girl.
everything will be okay.
i love you.
..mon petit chou. =)
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i wish i knew if he felt even half of what I feel for him. i wish he would just tell me how much he cares. i know he cares a whole fuckin lot. but....sometimes i wish i had something in writing. or heard him speak of how he enjoys all the little things as much as i do. but whether he says it or not....i know he cares.
i'm not good enough for him and i know he deserves better. i feel selfish as fuck not letting him go. but he's the best thing that has ever came into my life. i'd be foolish to say goodbye.
god i just want him to hold me and for him to fall asleep with his head resting against mine like he did on Sunday. it felt amazing. he is amazing. we are amazing. and what we have is beyond amazing.
love ashley
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