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I hate how everytime im upset, i come here and write. I seriously think i should start write a story...on...idk...but i want to.
I'm so depressed right now. I dont' know why, stupid pms. I just want one day where everything is alright. ONE DAY where everything goes right. No one gets in fights, no one talks shit, no one puts you down...your just...happy. I haven't had one of those days in a really, really, REALLY long time. Yeah, they'll be parts of the day where im happy or a majority of the day where im happy but never a whole day. I want just one day of pure bliss. One day, drama free. ONE DAY...that's all i ask. Is it that hard?
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At least two hours later...the time of this entry is wrong by the way, i started this at 12:15ish.
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I amazingly feel better. It's weird how certain people just bright up your life. I can honestly say that guys are soo much easier to get along with then girls. And it's really easy to talk to them and open up to them. I've had probably the best conversation i've ever had with greg tonight. It was weird cause, we dont' really know each other all that well but i felt i could tell him anything and he was opening up too..and i was pleased. Also, brad. Idk what to say about him....he's one of those guys that's just an amazing person who you could tell anything to.
Greg and i are making a restart button. Were going to invent it...So someday when you totally mess up just ask one of us and we'll give you our invention and you can rewind whatever happeend! Yayyyy!
These past...two weeks or so, i 've really gotten A LOT closer to tiff and becca but..i have more of a connection w. tiff. LIke, idk how to explain it but she gets me probably more then anyone ever has. She's always there for me..no matter where she is, what she's doing, who she's with...i call her, she drops what she's doing...and listens. With everything that's happened these past two weeks she's really needed someone and well, you wonder why i spend every night at her house and everyday with her? Their ya go. I guess im not the bad friend that i've grown to believe. I've been taught a lot about friendship these past two weeks. It's soo important. Which is why i always try to fix things when i fight w. people bc i know that when i need someone and no one's there i can turn to them and maybe just maybe if im lucky, they'll care, and listen. I have no drama when im with tiff nd bec...totally different from my usual group. But i still love them and always will.
I really wish no one read anything i say in here bc it's all nonsense and most of it i'd rather keep to myself just bc i talk about such stupid things that is really no one's buisness but mine. But, im too lazy to keep a hand written journal...so this is where i go and i chose to do it online so i can't control who reads it. This is my life. All of you people know everything about me and everything about my life, if you read this. What's weird is....i really don't know any of you livejournalists and you dont' really know me....all you know is what i write and if i didn't write..you wouldn't know me at all.
You think you know...but you have nooo idea. It's funny how someone would come up to me and say "so, hows blahblahblah" and im like "how would you know...oh your my livejournal friend". I can't belive how much of my life i spill out in here. Jeezomanzas.