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I guess what it is is that I find my time valuable. I know the people I want to share it with and I don't like answering to anyone. I like to know that I am in control of my decisions and that the only things clouding mey judgement are things I find important. I don't want to share that with anyone and on occasion, I let myself and then I get angry and resent the person. I want to know that no one is feeling jealous of the time I spend with Faith and Richard. That no one is jealous of the love I have for my boys. That no one is going to make me feel bad when I don't want to spend my every waking minute with them. That if I answer the phone for HIM, they won't always make me feel bad. I can't explain what we have and I won't. Some things just ARE and I won't compromise. Some day, I'm going to be an old woman. When I look back on my youth, I'd rather think I spent my days in love with the people that mattered rather than being in love with the IDEA of something that wasn't there.
With that being said, I met a boy and I am debating whether I should run after him or let him continue his stroll down the street alone. I am curious. I guess I'm just concerned because I always find myself in the same situation. With someone and wishing I wasn't. But this one seems like maybe even the time leading up to the inevitable might be worth it. Who knows? Maybe I'm wrong. But maybe I'm right.
With that being said, I met a boy and I am debating whether I should run after him or let him continue his stroll down the street alone. I am curious. I guess I'm just concerned because I always find myself in the same situation. With someone and wishing I wasn't. But this one seems like maybe even the time leading up to the inevitable might be worth it. Who knows? Maybe I'm wrong. But maybe I'm right.