sleepy day
no bra knowing gravity is in no competition with what is holding me back. walking through the grocery store carrying ground turkey, one large tomato, 2 containers of blueberry yogurt, and two womens protein bars. dirty day off work havent showered in 3 days, hair. have not eaten since the last margarita. dog sitting for a pet with an allergic reaction. have not been wearing my glasses or contacts for a couple of days it makes me less self conscious, overly analytical. I just stare at the blurs of colors as if it is all a dream. Really, I am not that lazy right now just eating when their is food and soaking up what I can, where I am at. I often want to do really impulsive things when it is too monotonous, like at work I thought about stapling alot of papers together for no reason and I found this idea pretty funny. I know its not really funny but I start smiling really big and people ask me what is funny wich makes me smile and laugh more because it is nothing that anyone would find funny. It is all in what context things happen. If I was to hear a certain song at the grocery store I am afraid I would have to drop my basket and start dancing. If I started taking myself more seriously people might respect me more but things would really be a whole lot more boring.