me and you against the world
i am tired of being dramatic about everything. I apoligized to my cell phone this evening for the lack of interesting conversations. I feel like I have dissapointed my technology. I really dont keep up with anything. I have really just been wanting to spend slow long days scanning rows of books in the library and reading the beginnings and ends. My brother keeps trying to define 'my kind of people' and lump together my interests and he seems to think I have something that I really connect with. He calls me when I am at my friends' house and reminds me about our time together. He looks forward to hanging out with me and cooks for me and sometimes I wonder how many of my journals he has read and if he even notices that my underwear are hanging about. Sometimes I feel really strange and I wish I was more simple like today when I almost made my manager cry because I told her examples of why I deserved above satisfactory on customer service and company involvement. I really didnt care I just love an argument and I hate people analysing personalities and generalizing. And so sometimes I feel weird and I want to stop having fun shocking people, entertaining myself, constantly analyzing, and sometimes I just want to take drugs. But my best friend told me it has always been you and me against the world. I dont believe it but sometimes loyalty means everything.