above all things maegan, i hold honesty and truth, and you know, all that kind of stuff above all
♥♥♥HAPPY 27 (dang, is it 27?) MONTHS SWEETHEART!!!!!
I LOVE YOU♥♥♥
so i had a long talk with someone last night, and im glad i did,
but out of all of it, i realized that i cant ever seem to get my point across
its crystal clear in my head, and i can end up explaining it later to someone else (last nights case in point was kathleen) but while im having the conversation, i can never freakin talk!!!
maybe its because, more often than not, i am usually pretty emotional, at least i was last night...
but regardless, the fact that i cant say what i am thinking, often becomes more frustrating than the actual conversation itself...
"maegan, we were just kids, its been four years, we're totally different people"
last night i was talking to dallas,
and some stuff got brought up that i never thought that i would need, or want to tell him...
some of my feelings as for what happened when we were still practically kids, but it effected me alot...were adressed, and i felt like a huge doofus cause he really didnt tell me his side, it was like a "lets focus on maegan, and forget that i am here" moment---im not saying thats really what happend, its just how it was making me feel...
he didnt know alot of it, and it made him feel terrible from what i could tell...
and i never wanted it to, but if we are going to be friends again, this is stuff that needs to be put out there otherwise, theres no point in honesty...
i dont know why i have decided recently to start really getting into the reasons of WHY i used to cut [[its been three weeks by the way]], but by talking to ben, and then dallas--which were two totally different circumstances mind you--it has made things alot easier
by actually sitting and trying to figure out why i started, and what my feelings are, the more i realize i dont need it anymore...
i hope i get to see eamon today,
i am wearing a skirt, so i look even more spectacular...
psh...
an addition to the foods [&& drinks] that i could live off of...
fig newtons, milk, smarties, grilled cheese, hu dats, and introducing...
PUMPKIN SPICE LATE
i really just love that stuff...
but sadly i can usually only drink the small size because it makes me really full...
tv night???
since we all missed it for my concert last week....
lol
I LOVE YOU♥♥♥
so i had a long talk with someone last night, and im glad i did,
but out of all of it, i realized that i cant ever seem to get my point across
its crystal clear in my head, and i can end up explaining it later to someone else (last nights case in point was kathleen) but while im having the conversation, i can never freakin talk!!!
maybe its because, more often than not, i am usually pretty emotional, at least i was last night...
but regardless, the fact that i cant say what i am thinking, often becomes more frustrating than the actual conversation itself...
"maegan, we were just kids, its been four years, we're totally different people"
last night i was talking to dallas,
and some stuff got brought up that i never thought that i would need, or want to tell him...
some of my feelings as for what happened when we were still practically kids, but it effected me alot...were adressed, and i felt like a huge doofus cause he really didnt tell me his side, it was like a "lets focus on maegan, and forget that i am here" moment---im not saying thats really what happend, its just how it was making me feel...
he didnt know alot of it, and it made him feel terrible from what i could tell...
and i never wanted it to, but if we are going to be friends again, this is stuff that needs to be put out there otherwise, theres no point in honesty...
i dont know why i have decided recently to start really getting into the reasons of WHY i used to cut [[its been three weeks by the way]], but by talking to ben, and then dallas--which were two totally different circumstances mind you--it has made things alot easier
by actually sitting and trying to figure out why i started, and what my feelings are, the more i realize i dont need it anymore...
i hope i get to see eamon today,
i am wearing a skirt, so i look even more spectacular...
psh...
an addition to the foods [&& drinks] that i could live off of...
fig newtons, milk, smarties, grilled cheese, hu dats, and introducing...
PUMPKIN SPICE LATE
i really just love that stuff...
but sadly i can usually only drink the small size because it makes me really full...
tv night???
since we all missed it for my concert last week....
lol