The Sea UnderNeath Aggravates My Insanity
If anyone has ever wondered (or, eh, noticed at all), most of my entries occur at strange hours of the night/early morning because the ones I write in the middle of the day are, my brain decides, stupid, and so I close the window without posting.
Anyway, so, it kinda seems like a bunch of people in my life (on and off LJ) are kinda in a... not excellent place? I dunno. Troubles. And I feel useless because these things always come in groups (what is up with that) and so I am also not necessarily in the best spot (mentally or financially, though I am coming out of the mental funk a bit, and at least physically I am mostly fine for now). BUT, if there is anything anyone thinks would help or cheer them up or whatever, and that I could do, I will totally try my best! (Things I have done in the past include sending letters, homemade cookies, and/or music, [attempting - not always succeeding at] short stories, and drawing random little doodle-things.)
Other stuff... BotCon schedule went up. (I'm in the 8 PM pick up, which, well... could be worse, but still, ugh, that line.) No MSTF - or anything - Friday night. I am sad. But! That means buying an After 4 pass for Disney was totally the right move. Yay! SO EXCITED. Kinda bummed that no one I know seems to be going, but I, uh. Maybe I will meet new people? That is hard and scary. Maybe I will hide in the corner. (Also the guest list makes me happy.)
...Also, ffff, I have totally destroyed my "not having original characters / that are me" trend. I think I mentioned this before, but now I finally have come up with a name, so I guess it's official. (Kinda surprised that there doesn't seem to already be a canon character with the name, but not complaining.) So weeeird. Not that much will be done with it (aside from occasional in-character chatting with mysticeden/'s character, who is the cause of all this, anyway, and probably letter-writing), but, you know, there it is. I OWN IT. I don't quite want to call it a self-insert, but it is kind of close. Bleh. Like I needed moar headcast.
My body (especially my spine) is really beginning to feel the affect of sleeping in the wrong bed... I'm using my mother's bed, since the guest room's a mess and since the dog gets all bent outta shape (he wants to sleep in a room with a person in it, but he wants to sleep in mom's room - or my old bedroom, which doesn't have a bed in it and so isn't an option at the moment). Her pillow is too thin and the mattress is too... something. Ugh. Achy. Also sleeping is a bit difficult when there's an emphysemic-(or maybe Darth Vader)-sounding dog who keeps choking on his own throat (and making the most alarming sounds) directly under your mattress. Also, my ankle is acting up, but, well. Business as usual, that. And the brace is helping. I think it's just the driving around I've been having to do that's aggravating it.
Anyway, so, it kinda seems like a bunch of people in my life (on and off LJ) are kinda in a... not excellent place? I dunno. Troubles. And I feel useless because these things always come in groups (what is up with that) and so I am also not necessarily in the best spot (mentally or financially, though I am coming out of the mental funk a bit, and at least physically I am mostly fine for now). BUT, if there is anything anyone thinks would help or cheer them up or whatever, and that I could do, I will totally try my best! (Things I have done in the past include sending letters, homemade cookies, and/or music, [attempting - not always succeeding at] short stories, and drawing random little doodle-things.)
Other stuff... BotCon schedule went up. (I'm in the 8 PM pick up, which, well... could be worse, but still, ugh, that line.) No MSTF - or anything - Friday night. I am sad. But! That means buying an After 4 pass for Disney was totally the right move. Yay! SO EXCITED. Kinda bummed that no one I know seems to be going, but I, uh. Maybe I will meet new people? That is hard and scary. Maybe I will hide in the corner. (Also the guest list makes me happy.)
...Also, ffff, I have totally destroyed my "not having original characters / that are me" trend. I think I mentioned this before, but now I finally have come up with a name, so I guess it's official. (Kinda surprised that there doesn't seem to already be a canon character with the name, but not complaining.) So weeeird. Not that much will be done with it (aside from occasional in-character chatting with mysticeden/'s character, who is the cause of all this, anyway, and probably letter-writing), but, you know, there it is. I OWN IT. I don't quite want to call it a self-insert, but it is kind of close. Bleh. Like I needed moar headcast.
My body (especially my spine) is really beginning to feel the affect of sleeping in the wrong bed... I'm using my mother's bed, since the guest room's a mess and since the dog gets all bent outta shape (he wants to sleep in a room with a person in it, but he wants to sleep in mom's room - or my old bedroom, which doesn't have a bed in it and so isn't an option at the moment). Her pillow is too thin and the mattress is too... something. Ugh. Achy. Also sleeping is a bit difficult when there's an emphysemic-(or maybe Darth Vader)-sounding dog who keeps choking on his own throat (and making the most alarming sounds) directly under your mattress. Also, my ankle is acting up, but, well. Business as usual, that. And the brace is helping. I think it's just the driving around I've been having to do that's aggravating it.