This isn't the subject line I originally had.
I was thinking about writing and characters and fanfiction versus original fiction and all that sort of stuff this evening while waiting for the dishes to dry so I could cook dinner! And. I was going to go into some wordy back story here, but really it was only ever one person, wasn't it? I don't know. I know other people's original characters/universes are generally not that exciting! TOO BAD I'M TALKING ABOUT IT ANYWAY. Anyway. One or two people have, on occasion, asked something about Okame-verse (which still needs a better name) and the timeline and overall storyline and I... generally don't have an answer for it! And I (finally?) put the why behind that into words. A lot of the time when you've got characters that you write about, you write, you know, a story. And, the thing is, with those two, there isn't really one. There's no big, overreaching ... thing. I mean, when I write about them, it's just an incident in their lives. That's all.
I do have a universe or two with, you know, actual plots (I've pretty much never posted about them, though), but this isn't one of them.
And sometimes I feel kind of bad, or weird about that? I dunno. Like, how does Okame freaking out this time relate to wherever you're eventually going with this? And I'm not eventually going anywhere with any of it. I mean, yeah, sure, depending on when in their lives I write them, they act different, or stuff has changed, but they're (probably) never going to do anything special or, uh. Interesting, even, haha. I just like them. Even if they won't ever solve the world crisis of doom or save the whales or anything.
I was going to make an allcaps-y sentence about how they're both weird and dysfunctional and totally not girlfriends shut up Jade will kill you, but I feel like I've been seeing a lot of internet drama lately and don't want anyone to jump on me for accusing [x] group of people of being completely mad. Or socially inept. Or dysfunctional. Or ... whatever. So, uh, I guess I won't.
Good sign you've been spending too much time pounding away at a word doc (EVEN IF YOU AREN'T GETTING ANYWHERE ARGH RAGE): you keep reflexively hitting ctrl-s every paragraph or so. I've attempted to save the update page five or six times now. Good job, self!
Feeling a bit like crap lately! Yay! I'm still not consistently getting enough hours at work to pay the rent (getting a bit closer now, at least), so I guess I really do have to go find a second job (crap). Or a full-time job! No one in the area seems to be hiring for what I actually went to school for, but I went reading up on it and maybe that's for the best because I find myself doubting my ability to actually do that. I'm not sure if that's me-feeling-down talking or if it's a legitimate concern. Either way, it ties back to the goddamn hospital. Mom was talking to me the other day and was saying something about me looking for jobs with them and I just can't do it. I literally would not be able to work with/for the people who treated me like that during my internship, and the local hospital only really has one main lab. It's, admittedly, a huge room, but it's still only one room. I would explode into either a ball of passive aggressive rage or ... or just explode, really, I think. It wouldn't end well, at any rate. SO THEY'RE OUT.
There's a phlebotomist (uh, actually, Firefox, that is a word. Promise) / lab assistant job at a health center but I... still don't want to work as a phlebotomist. I have the training, so I could, I just... it's not appealing to me. I should just suck it up and start applying to them, anyway. Stop being so lame.
Maybe if I get a real job or a second job, I could afford a critter. I really want... something. Not like a fish. Or a hamster, really, even though they are cute. I WANT A CAT. I cannot afford a cat. And it would have to be an indoor cat, which I'd feel bad about, so it's just as well I can't afford one, but something to keep me company on occasion would be nice? This could probably be hideously passive aggressive of me, but I don't care at the moment. So my roommate got a boyfriend (good for her! I do say that with sincerity) and has ... pretty much moved out of the apartment since then because she spends all of her time at his place, which, okay, none of my business, but if I'd wanted to live all alone I'd have rented a single. Like, it's to the point where I'm considering looking for a new apartment, even though I really love this one (spiders and all...), just because I don't like perpetually being the sole living entity in the place. And moving would be a major pain, since I'd have to disassemble everything and find someone to help me move it all. Yes, I know I should be talking to Aniko about this instead of ranting about it here, but it's kind of hard to do that when she is never home and, when she is, it's only for a few hours, at the most, and every time I try to start a conversation with her about anything it either turns into her telling me about her boyfriend (really, I'm glad for her, but I don't care) or her phone rings and she leaves mid-conversation, so what is the point? So I've kind of stopped bothering to talk to her even when she is around.
Awesome.
Aaand my father is still not talking to me, though his excuses as to why vary day to day. It's stupid and I'm sick of it, but I can't do anything! He won't talk to me! And his tendency to turn everything into being my fault doesn't really help matters. And honestly it's kind of nice to not have him nagging me every time I turn around. I just wish we could go about this like adults. And every time I talk to Mom it comes around to how sad it is that we don't talk anymore like there's anything I can do about it.
Well. I suppose I could get a personality transplant.
For your daily dose of is she really still talking about that?, San d'Oria took Sarutabaruta in conquest this week, which is pretty awesome! We've claimed Gustaberg quite a few times, but we've only rarely taken Saru[tab] and, to my unending frustration, those times have always been during weeks I haven't logged on for whatever reason. (Oh, yes, this is FFXI-talk now, if you didn't know what any of this was about.) BUT THIS WEEK - haha! So now I've run supplies to the outpost by Windurst and so now I have finally done the supplies quest for every outpost (on Hisime, and that I have access to, anyway. No Sky yet, but that's the only one, now). I took Aya and Ki out, too, since, you know, Windurst? FAR AWAY. And Ki can't airship it, so, uh, yeah. Long trip for her no matter how you go about it. (EXCEPT NOT ANYMORE i love op warp)
Also, it's been over a year and a half since my brother started trying for the m.kris and all it's got him so far is a couple hundred thousand gil down the drain. He's considering giving up and, since that would mean he can't go anywhere (or going to gt a Joyeuse, which he doesn't have time for), quitting. So right now he's trying to come up with a way to make 3.5 million, because the thought of fishing for more marlin (only for, again, absolutely none of them to give a chart, and even if they did, for the fight to them only give us another fuscina or piece of oxblood and a dwarf pugil) is too unbearable. Dear SE: it would not kill you to be just a little nicer to your playerbase on occasion!
To end on a random note, here's an amusing article on why the US Life on Mars was STUPID. Or at least not as good as the original. Reading that has had the perhaps unfortunate side effect of making me want to rewatch the original again.
I do have a universe or two with, you know, actual plots (I've pretty much never posted about them, though), but this isn't one of them.
And sometimes I feel kind of bad, or weird about that? I dunno. Like, how does Okame freaking out this time relate to wherever you're eventually going with this? And I'm not eventually going anywhere with any of it. I mean, yeah, sure, depending on when in their lives I write them, they act different, or stuff has changed, but they're (probably) never going to do anything special or, uh. Interesting, even, haha. I just like them. Even if they won't ever solve the world crisis of doom or save the whales or anything.
I was going to make an allcaps-y sentence about how they're both weird and dysfunctional and totally not girlfriends shut up Jade will kill you, but I feel like I've been seeing a lot of internet drama lately and don't want anyone to jump on me for accusing [x] group of people of being completely mad. Or socially inept. Or dysfunctional. Or ... whatever. So, uh, I guess I won't.
Good sign you've been spending too much time pounding away at a word doc (EVEN IF YOU AREN'T GETTING ANYWHERE ARGH RAGE): you keep reflexively hitting ctrl-s every paragraph or so. I've attempted to save the update page five or six times now. Good job, self!
Feeling a bit like crap lately! Yay! I'm still not consistently getting enough hours at work to pay the rent (getting a bit closer now, at least), so I guess I really do have to go find a second job (crap). Or a full-time job! No one in the area seems to be hiring for what I actually went to school for, but I went reading up on it and maybe that's for the best because I find myself doubting my ability to actually do that. I'm not sure if that's me-feeling-down talking or if it's a legitimate concern. Either way, it ties back to the goddamn hospital. Mom was talking to me the other day and was saying something about me looking for jobs with them and I just can't do it. I literally would not be able to work with/for the people who treated me like that during my internship, and the local hospital only really has one main lab. It's, admittedly, a huge room, but it's still only one room. I would explode into either a ball of passive aggressive rage or ... or just explode, really, I think. It wouldn't end well, at any rate. SO THEY'RE OUT.
There's a phlebotomist (uh, actually, Firefox, that is a word. Promise) / lab assistant job at a health center but I... still don't want to work as a phlebotomist. I have the training, so I could, I just... it's not appealing to me. I should just suck it up and start applying to them, anyway. Stop being so lame.
Maybe if I get a real job or a second job, I could afford a critter. I really want... something. Not like a fish. Or a hamster, really, even though they are cute. I WANT A CAT. I cannot afford a cat. And it would have to be an indoor cat, which I'd feel bad about, so it's just as well I can't afford one, but something to keep me company on occasion would be nice? This could probably be hideously passive aggressive of me, but I don't care at the moment. So my roommate got a boyfriend (good for her! I do say that with sincerity) and has ... pretty much moved out of the apartment since then because she spends all of her time at his place, which, okay, none of my business, but if I'd wanted to live all alone I'd have rented a single. Like, it's to the point where I'm considering looking for a new apartment, even though I really love this one (spiders and all...), just because I don't like perpetually being the sole living entity in the place. And moving would be a major pain, since I'd have to disassemble everything and find someone to help me move it all. Yes, I know I should be talking to Aniko about this instead of ranting about it here, but it's kind of hard to do that when she is never home and, when she is, it's only for a few hours, at the most, and every time I try to start a conversation with her about anything it either turns into her telling me about her boyfriend (really, I'm glad for her, but I don't care) or her phone rings and she leaves mid-conversation, so what is the point? So I've kind of stopped bothering to talk to her even when she is around.
Awesome.
Aaand my father is still not talking to me, though his excuses as to why vary day to day. It's stupid and I'm sick of it, but I can't do anything! He won't talk to me! And his tendency to turn everything into being my fault doesn't really help matters. And honestly it's kind of nice to not have him nagging me every time I turn around. I just wish we could go about this like adults. And every time I talk to Mom it comes around to how sad it is that we don't talk anymore like there's anything I can do about it.
Well. I suppose I could get a personality transplant.
For your daily dose of is she really still talking about that?, San d'Oria took Sarutabaruta in conquest this week, which is pretty awesome! We've claimed Gustaberg quite a few times, but we've only rarely taken Saru[tab] and, to my unending frustration, those times have always been during weeks I haven't logged on for whatever reason. (Oh, yes, this is FFXI-talk now, if you didn't know what any of this was about.) BUT THIS WEEK - haha! So now I've run supplies to the outpost by Windurst and so now I have finally done the supplies quest for every outpost (on Hisime, and that I have access to, anyway. No Sky yet, but that's the only one, now). I took Aya and Ki out, too, since, you know, Windurst? FAR AWAY. And Ki can't airship it, so, uh, yeah. Long trip for her no matter how you go about it. (EXCEPT NOT ANYMORE i love op warp)
Also, it's been over a year and a half since my brother started trying for the m.kris and all it's got him so far is a couple hundred thousand gil down the drain. He's considering giving up and, since that would mean he can't go anywhere (or going to gt a Joyeuse, which he doesn't have time for), quitting. So right now he's trying to come up with a way to make 3.5 million, because the thought of fishing for more marlin (only for, again, absolutely none of them to give a chart, and even if they did, for the fight to them only give us another fuscina or piece of oxblood and a dwarf pugil) is too unbearable. Dear SE: it would not kill you to be just a little nicer to your playerbase on occasion!
To end on a random note, here's an amusing article on why the US Life on Mars was STUPID. Or at least not as good as the original. Reading that has had the perhaps unfortunate side effect of making me want to rewatch the original again.