Nightmares... so many nightmares

[twilightsparrow]

Oh God... what a couple day i've had... i haven't slept in the last 3 days... I've had nightmares every night... they all revolve around the same thing... i've watched Dom die for the last 3 nights in a row... everytime a different death but the same idea... one i saw him being shot... another i think he drown... and the last one was the worst... he was going out of town to meet some girl... and i said " Fine fuck you... go to hell!!" those were the last words i said to him in my dream... he died in a plane crash... i woke up from all of them in a cold sweat crying... i'm so scared of going to sleep again... i don't want to have another nightmare like that...it felt so real... and i know i screamed the night i saw him bein shot... i physically (in real life) screamed... i don't want to sleep... i don't think i'm gonna... i really don't want to deal with that again...

I need to talk to him though... i need to tell him how i feel... before he leaves... i need to find out some things...and i know that... it just doin it thats the hard part...

::sigh::

someone please just kill me...