Caught... oh shit...
Well i went over Dom's sunday... yeah what fun that was... it started out all right... we went to his sister softball game... he helped out a little and i sat on the bench... it was funny he was practicing with his little sister and she couldn't hit the ball and he could hit it one handed (of course he was using one of her bats so it was super light) and they played around for a little... then he came back over and sat down on the bench beside me... he put his head down on my shoulder and his arm was around my waist and we sat there for a bit... then he wanted to walk back to his house (basically because no one was home) and instead of walking back his dad offered us a ride back (knowing the house was empty)
so he leaves and we go into Dom's basement... and of course one thing led to another and y'all know how that goes... (it basically became a heavy make-out session, get your minds out of the gutter...lol) but yeah we ended up on the floor with him on top of me... and then all hell broke lose... his mom walked in... and basically saw dom on top of me... with his shirt off... yeah... and considering she like a devout (sp?) catholic... that didn't go over too awful well... she started to flip shit i was in shock for a second and then i curled up and started balling... it was so scared... (not for me mind you but for him) i've never seen him cry before... but yesterday... holy hell it was the most heart-breaking thing ever... i felt like just holding him and making his mom disappear... but reality was we had been caught and there was nothing either of us could do about it...
so i was basically border-line hysterical at this moment and somehow.... he managed to find the composure (sp?) to get up... put his shirt back on... and lift me up off the floor... his mom ran upstairs to get something he held me close and was like "shh... its not your fault..." cause i just kept sayin over and over again "its my fault" and he's all like"no its not... no its not" and his mother went into this whole lecture about how sex is for two people who are married... and how we're just kids...and thats how AIDS and HIV and all this shit is spread(basically calling me a slut) ( but its not like we were acutally having sex i was fully clothed and the only thing he had off was his shirt...oh wow...and if we had we'd be taking every precaution there was not to get anything and not to get me pregnant...) and she went on about what were we thinking.... and honestly had i had the courage and been all together at the time i would have said something to her... but i didn't and i wasn't... so i just sat there in complete horror... and honestly i don't go by half of what she said... i know that i have deep feelings for him...yes i'm inlove with him... i've never felt this way about anyone before... and he told me that "he truly loved me and that he wanted to be with me forever"... yes we're younger but i know kids that lost there virginity at 13... hell i think Dom was 13... and neither of us have HIV, AIDS, or any kind of STD... so i was basically like... you just infered i'm a slut... WTF!?!?!?!
so i think his mom strongly dislikes me... but she did give me a ride home... instead of makin me walk or call for a ride... which i suppose means she doesn't have a searing hatred for me... but i don't think i'll be allowed over there for quite some time now...
But he told me he loved me... he said it... he looked directly into my eyes and said "I love you" "i want to be with you forever" now i wasn't so sure i believed him... but then i asked him today i was like "did you mean what you said yesterday" and he was like "yeah i did" so i'm hoping with all my heart and soul that he's telling me the truth... it felt so good to hear him say that... after he said it i sat there for a second just searching his eyes and then i said " i love you too" and i just felt soo good... it felt like nothing could be wrong at that moment...
I love him so much... and yes... i do believe i'm inlove with him... truly inlove with him...
so he leaves and we go into Dom's basement... and of course one thing led to another and y'all know how that goes... (it basically became a heavy make-out session, get your minds out of the gutter...lol) but yeah we ended up on the floor with him on top of me... and then all hell broke lose... his mom walked in... and basically saw dom on top of me... with his shirt off... yeah... and considering she like a devout (sp?) catholic... that didn't go over too awful well... she started to flip shit i was in shock for a second and then i curled up and started balling... it was so scared... (not for me mind you but for him) i've never seen him cry before... but yesterday... holy hell it was the most heart-breaking thing ever... i felt like just holding him and making his mom disappear... but reality was we had been caught and there was nothing either of us could do about it...
so i was basically border-line hysterical at this moment and somehow.... he managed to find the composure (sp?) to get up... put his shirt back on... and lift me up off the floor... his mom ran upstairs to get something he held me close and was like "shh... its not your fault..." cause i just kept sayin over and over again "its my fault" and he's all like"no its not... no its not" and his mother went into this whole lecture about how sex is for two people who are married... and how we're just kids...and thats how AIDS and HIV and all this shit is spread(basically calling me a slut) ( but its not like we were acutally having sex i was fully clothed and the only thing he had off was his shirt...oh wow...and if we had we'd be taking every precaution there was not to get anything and not to get me pregnant...) and she went on about what were we thinking.... and honestly had i had the courage and been all together at the time i would have said something to her... but i didn't and i wasn't... so i just sat there in complete horror... and honestly i don't go by half of what she said... i know that i have deep feelings for him...yes i'm inlove with him... i've never felt this way about anyone before... and he told me that "he truly loved me and that he wanted to be with me forever"... yes we're younger but i know kids that lost there virginity at 13... hell i think Dom was 13... and neither of us have HIV, AIDS, or any kind of STD... so i was basically like... you just infered i'm a slut... WTF!?!?!?!
so i think his mom strongly dislikes me... but she did give me a ride home... instead of makin me walk or call for a ride... which i suppose means she doesn't have a searing hatred for me... but i don't think i'll be allowed over there for quite some time now...
But he told me he loved me... he said it... he looked directly into my eyes and said "I love you" "i want to be with you forever" now i wasn't so sure i believed him... but then i asked him today i was like "did you mean what you said yesterday" and he was like "yeah i did" so i'm hoping with all my heart and soul that he's telling me the truth... it felt so good to hear him say that... after he said it i sat there for a second just searching his eyes and then i said " i love you too" and i just felt soo good... it felt like nothing could be wrong at that moment...
I love him so much... and yes... i do believe i'm inlove with him... truly inlove with him...