100 things about me...
okay things you didnt want to know about me...you probably dont want to read them all but if you do id be impressed..so yeah knock yourself out
1. im afraid of heights
2. im afraid of planes
3. ive never been on a plane. they scare me too much, but i suppose if i want to travel the world, ill have to.
4. i want to travel the world. lol
5. im afraid of not leaving a legacy when i die. i just dont want to be like every other person who just lives their life and never does anything exciting. i want to be remembered for something. even if its just being one of the lesbians in the back of the theatre. i just hope that someday people will hear my name and itll mean something and i wont be just another meaningless name from the past. i dont want to be someone who never gets out, never sees the world, never does anything out of the ordinary. which basically sums up my parents, which brings me to...
6. im afraid of ending up like my mom. im afraid of being a bitter person who never quite found out what love really was, and just looks for it wherever, even if its not there.
7. im so in love. jen is the most wonderful person i have ever met. and every moment i spend with her gets better and better.
8. i believe i hold the shortest record for a period of dating ---15 minutes. okay, so it was to a gay boi, but i didnt know that at the time. but i do believe he was trying to tell me with his "i used to take figure skating when i was little" lol
9. i hope that my relationship with jen never ends. if it did (which it wont) i would never be able to get over her, and id just spend the rest of my life wondering where we went wrong.
10. ive never seen the ocean, but id like to. the farthest ive been out of erie, is wash dc. wow my life is sad.
11. i hate when people end sentences with prepositions like i did in #10.
12. i want to be a famous actress one day, which is doubtful, but oh well. but the odd thing is..me taking drama in 9th grade..was because i thought we were going to do more of reading plays and not actually acting. up until that point i had never considered acting.
13. almost every single monologue ive given ive played a man...and miller tells me im good at it *scratches head*
14. i suck at public speaking..youd think because i can act i would be good at it, but im not. for me its so much easier when im not myself up on stage. maybe its so much easier to be someone else because ive been doing it for so long. that is...pretending to be straight. i still do to an extent..or i have to watch what i say around certain people..namely family and my neighbors.
15. there are few people that know everything about me. everyone has this little image of what and who i am, but no one has ever seen the complete picture. but jen is the closest i have ever let anyone come to seeing all of that. and well shes about 97% of the way there.
16. my favorite colour is green...and im so surprised that jen knows that cos most of the time im not even sure what my fav colour is.
17. i love canadians. i hope one day to be one of them...along with jen in our apartment with candles all around and a canopy bed (cos i said so) and our pet duck and lizard. *dreams about the future*
18. ive got a long lost lesbian sister who lives in baltimore. i used to think she was almost exactly like me, but the more i find out the more i realize..boi are we different. but im glad for that. not that shes not an awesome person.
19. i hope that she finds someone to love her. she needs it so badly.
20. my favorite movie will always be little women. and back when i was hmmm 9, 10? i made my cousins do a god-awful version of the play in front our whole family. they hated every minute of it. and now, im in my school play of little women. i wonder how many of my cousins will come and see it. :)
21. my first kiss was with jen. my first everything was with jen. and im so thankful for all of it.
22. last summer, running through the sprinklers at ellen's at 3 in the morning, was the first time in a long time before that that i had felt totally alive.
23. the time before that that made me feel very alive was the ani concert, but not even totally that i guess. i felt so nervous and awkard all night cos i couldnt stop thinking about jen.
24. when i was 4 years old, i had to get stitches under my left eye after i ran into a my grandma's dresser....i still have a scar there, but i like it. it makes me unique. kara has a scar near her left eye, too...hence our psychic powers.
25. i hate when people break traditions. i guess thats one of the small things i still cling to in my family, and well traditions have been trampled on for the last..oh say 7 years. ever since my dad left.
26. my parents seperated when i was 9. i remember the day he moved out. we had come home from a picnic at the zoo with my dad's side of the family, and then he just didnt come home with us. and i remember eating a blue bubble gum popsicle and sobbing my eyes out with my mom, and my neighbor, belle, coming over and trying to make us both feel better. and i remember my mom telling me to talk about it with someone who had been there..aka..steph bostaph. well yeah stephs parents split when she was 4, like she has anything substanial to say about how to feel and what to do when they first split.
27. i dont have any memories of my dad actually living in our house. i remember him being here every other night practically because my mom could never say no to him. but i dont remember what it feels like to have both of my parents living under the same roof. i sort of wish i did, so i could compare it to now.
28. my parents got a divorce when i was 13. i believe it was january of that year when it was official. but it wasnt like anything had changed.
29. my dad stopped drinking on dec 6th of that same year. i guess he finally realized that it wasnt going to make his problems go away, but it was just making things worse. and i know that it all started after my grandma died. my grandma meant the world to him. and she meant the world to me too, and i still miss her so much. and i remember him calling up mom on a Sunday night and telling her he wanted help. and i remember everything dad went through, and im so proud of him now, 4 years later.
30. i feel horrible for not remembering to say something to him this year..on dec 6th.
31. i love coffee.
32. i love peppermint stick ice cream *goes to get some*
33. my favorite flavor of ice cream is strawberry (but only homemade)
34. my favorite beatles song is and always will be "here comes the sun." its the first song i ever remember hearing as a child. my aunt used to play it all the time. and i listened to it on so many cold wintery days in 9th grade, when i didnt think there was anything left to live for.
35. i live with my mom
36. im considering moving in with my dad
37. out of all my friends, ive known kara the longest, well save kira, but i havent talked to her in almost 2 years, so im not sure if that counts or not. but its been 6 years, and im so thankful for everything shes done for me, for listening to me, and being here for me, and being insane :) but especially for everything concerning jen because she is a big part of the reason why we are together...i mean it hopefully would have eventually happened, but thanks to kara, it happened when it did.
38. ive got one cat, daisy, who is my darling baby (and no im not obsessive like rzod). shes so sweet and i hate how shes afraid of everyone, but i also like it because shell only warm up to me. and ive got my bunny, blacky, who ive had for over 8 years. hes a sweet pea. and im so glad hes still with us because thats a remarkably long time for bunnies to live. (oh yeah my mom and my dad each have a cat too :P)
39. i never learned how to tie my shoes the right way. my parents just gave up on me. if anyone is willing to teach me the correct way, let me know! lol
40. i had chicken pox the day of my preschool graduation. boi, did that suck.
41. i started my period in 9th grade on the day when my grandpa was in the hospital and almost died. boi, what memories. the next day, we had our test on religions in mrs pattons..dont ask how i remember these things.
42. the first memory i have of jen is in drama class with her wearing her rainbow sweater. wow.
43. my favorite president is fdr. man, if he ruled the country today..wait hes dead.
44. im catholic and im getting confirmed..against my will...i have no idea what i believe...everything has been shoved down my throat for so long that i sometimes forget how to think for myself
45. i love canopy beds.
46. i love cherry wood.
47. i love canopy beds made of out cherry wood. lol
48. the first book i ever learned to read was brown bear, brown bear, what do you hear?...great book..i suggest you read it lol
49. i just ate an entire pack of orange tic tacs :)
50. i came out to my dad on Thursday
51. i found out that my cousin is gay
52. jen and i have been together for 5 months
53. my favorite beatle is john lennon
54. george was always my least favorite beatle...still is
55. my birthday this year was the first birthday i can say that was actually happy and i owe that all to jen
56. my first ani song i ever heard (save wishin and hopin) was loom and it will always be my favorite
57. served faithfully was the 2nd song i ever heard....i listened to that song on repeat for weeks
58. i'm special (as in queer) lol
59. i hate smiley faces...but i still draw them all over jens history binder in attempt to cheer her up
60. camels and rhinos are my favorite animals
61. i once wrote a song about turkey during lent...
62. no, i dont do drugs...although you might think so
63. sometimes i wish i was butch....but the rest of the time..i think fuck it..i like how i am
64. ive seen ani difranco, paul mccartney, sheryl crow, and the goo goo dolls in concert
65. im ashamed that i saw sheryl crow...i only did it for my dad
66. all i want for christmas is for my buddy norelle to find herself a woman of her own :)
67. okay so thats not all i want....id rather like to have some time alone with jen so i could give her the rest of her xmas present *winks*
68. speaking of which...i love pussy :) lol
69. im a virgin..contrary to popular belief and very unfortunately
70. drive is one of my favorite songs because *wow*
71. i love having a clean room...im a neat freak but most of the time i dont have the time to be
72. im in the process of cleaning my room for the holidays right now lol
73. i take ballet and jazz dance at a studio and i take jazz, ballet, and tap at school
74. ive been taking jazz for 10 years...and i havent taken ballet since i was 6 and tap since i was 9
75. i suck at ballet
76. im not flexible at all, which it would be nice if i was and youd think iw ould be having taken dance for 12 years, but no...it sucks :P
77. i aww when moosen eat poor defenseless cabbages
78. im a fork bandit
79. i like fruitcake..okay so no i dont..inside joke x20 there
80. i like to say x#'s or x20 x infinite x another really big number you cant beat!!!
81. i love rotary dial phones..i need me one
82. im a righteous babe
83. i love the show M*A*S*H and i absolutely adore Alan Alda
84. i kissed a girl..wont change the world..but im so glad i kissed a girl *sings along*
85. i cant sing worth crap..and i was told by several of my friends that when i was in chorus and i sang i looked like a sad puppy dog :(
86. my favorite greek goddess is iris cos shes the goddess of rainbows..or artemis cos she was a big ol dyke
87. i used to have a big ol plant that crept all the way around the kitchen and everyone mourned when my mom cut it..and it hasnt grown back since
88. i have 3 elbows
89. 2 on my arms...and the 3rd is....nevermind :)
90. even ping pong tables can be romantic, when youre under them with that special someone
91. i suck at ping pong..last time i played, the ball bounced right off of me lol
92. ive never broken a bone..which a lot of people find surpising since i look so fragile but im really tuffffff
93. jen says im the toughest grrl she knows..i think shes lying
94. jen is *the* most beautiful person i have ever seen which says a lot cos i get to look at myself in the mirror everyday lol jk..and im kidding about me being so beautiful..defintely not about her being beautiful
95. i would turn down a massive orgy with melissa ferrick, julie wolf, and ani difranco for jen cos jens better than all of them put together
96. ive got a woman around my finger...aka my ring lol
97. im soooo tired
98. i got to see jen tonite
99. im using up these last ones cos im outta things
100. im a grrl :) lol just in case you didnt know
1. im afraid of heights
2. im afraid of planes
3. ive never been on a plane. they scare me too much, but i suppose if i want to travel the world, ill have to.
4. i want to travel the world. lol
5. im afraid of not leaving a legacy when i die. i just dont want to be like every other person who just lives their life and never does anything exciting. i want to be remembered for something. even if its just being one of the lesbians in the back of the theatre. i just hope that someday people will hear my name and itll mean something and i wont be just another meaningless name from the past. i dont want to be someone who never gets out, never sees the world, never does anything out of the ordinary. which basically sums up my parents, which brings me to...
6. im afraid of ending up like my mom. im afraid of being a bitter person who never quite found out what love really was, and just looks for it wherever, even if its not there.
7. im so in love. jen is the most wonderful person i have ever met. and every moment i spend with her gets better and better.
8. i believe i hold the shortest record for a period of dating ---15 minutes. okay, so it was to a gay boi, but i didnt know that at the time. but i do believe he was trying to tell me with his "i used to take figure skating when i was little" lol
9. i hope that my relationship with jen never ends. if it did (which it wont) i would never be able to get over her, and id just spend the rest of my life wondering where we went wrong.
10. ive never seen the ocean, but id like to. the farthest ive been out of erie, is wash dc. wow my life is sad.
11. i hate when people end sentences with prepositions like i did in #10.
12. i want to be a famous actress one day, which is doubtful, but oh well. but the odd thing is..me taking drama in 9th grade..was because i thought we were going to do more of reading plays and not actually acting. up until that point i had never considered acting.
13. almost every single monologue ive given ive played a man...and miller tells me im good at it *scratches head*
14. i suck at public speaking..youd think because i can act i would be good at it, but im not. for me its so much easier when im not myself up on stage. maybe its so much easier to be someone else because ive been doing it for so long. that is...pretending to be straight. i still do to an extent..or i have to watch what i say around certain people..namely family and my neighbors.
15. there are few people that know everything about me. everyone has this little image of what and who i am, but no one has ever seen the complete picture. but jen is the closest i have ever let anyone come to seeing all of that. and well shes about 97% of the way there.
16. my favorite colour is green...and im so surprised that jen knows that cos most of the time im not even sure what my fav colour is.
17. i love canadians. i hope one day to be one of them...along with jen in our apartment with candles all around and a canopy bed (cos i said so) and our pet duck and lizard. *dreams about the future*
18. ive got a long lost lesbian sister who lives in baltimore. i used to think she was almost exactly like me, but the more i find out the more i realize..boi are we different. but im glad for that. not that shes not an awesome person.
19. i hope that she finds someone to love her. she needs it so badly.
20. my favorite movie will always be little women. and back when i was hmmm 9, 10? i made my cousins do a god-awful version of the play in front our whole family. they hated every minute of it. and now, im in my school play of little women. i wonder how many of my cousins will come and see it. :)
21. my first kiss was with jen. my first everything was with jen. and im so thankful for all of it.
22. last summer, running through the sprinklers at ellen's at 3 in the morning, was the first time in a long time before that that i had felt totally alive.
23. the time before that that made me feel very alive was the ani concert, but not even totally that i guess. i felt so nervous and awkard all night cos i couldnt stop thinking about jen.
24. when i was 4 years old, i had to get stitches under my left eye after i ran into a my grandma's dresser....i still have a scar there, but i like it. it makes me unique. kara has a scar near her left eye, too...hence our psychic powers.
25. i hate when people break traditions. i guess thats one of the small things i still cling to in my family, and well traditions have been trampled on for the last..oh say 7 years. ever since my dad left.
26. my parents seperated when i was 9. i remember the day he moved out. we had come home from a picnic at the zoo with my dad's side of the family, and then he just didnt come home with us. and i remember eating a blue bubble gum popsicle and sobbing my eyes out with my mom, and my neighbor, belle, coming over and trying to make us both feel better. and i remember my mom telling me to talk about it with someone who had been there..aka..steph bostaph. well yeah stephs parents split when she was 4, like she has anything substanial to say about how to feel and what to do when they first split.
27. i dont have any memories of my dad actually living in our house. i remember him being here every other night practically because my mom could never say no to him. but i dont remember what it feels like to have both of my parents living under the same roof. i sort of wish i did, so i could compare it to now.
28. my parents got a divorce when i was 13. i believe it was january of that year when it was official. but it wasnt like anything had changed.
29. my dad stopped drinking on dec 6th of that same year. i guess he finally realized that it wasnt going to make his problems go away, but it was just making things worse. and i know that it all started after my grandma died. my grandma meant the world to him. and she meant the world to me too, and i still miss her so much. and i remember him calling up mom on a Sunday night and telling her he wanted help. and i remember everything dad went through, and im so proud of him now, 4 years later.
30. i feel horrible for not remembering to say something to him this year..on dec 6th.
31. i love coffee.
32. i love peppermint stick ice cream *goes to get some*
33. my favorite flavor of ice cream is strawberry (but only homemade)
34. my favorite beatles song is and always will be "here comes the sun." its the first song i ever remember hearing as a child. my aunt used to play it all the time. and i listened to it on so many cold wintery days in 9th grade, when i didnt think there was anything left to live for.
35. i live with my mom
36. im considering moving in with my dad
37. out of all my friends, ive known kara the longest, well save kira, but i havent talked to her in almost 2 years, so im not sure if that counts or not. but its been 6 years, and im so thankful for everything shes done for me, for listening to me, and being here for me, and being insane :) but especially for everything concerning jen because she is a big part of the reason why we are together...i mean it hopefully would have eventually happened, but thanks to kara, it happened when it did.
38. ive got one cat, daisy, who is my darling baby (and no im not obsessive like rzod). shes so sweet and i hate how shes afraid of everyone, but i also like it because shell only warm up to me. and ive got my bunny, blacky, who ive had for over 8 years. hes a sweet pea. and im so glad hes still with us because thats a remarkably long time for bunnies to live. (oh yeah my mom and my dad each have a cat too :P)
39. i never learned how to tie my shoes the right way. my parents just gave up on me. if anyone is willing to teach me the correct way, let me know! lol
40. i had chicken pox the day of my preschool graduation. boi, did that suck.
41. i started my period in 9th grade on the day when my grandpa was in the hospital and almost died. boi, what memories. the next day, we had our test on religions in mrs pattons..dont ask how i remember these things.
42. the first memory i have of jen is in drama class with her wearing her rainbow sweater. wow.
43. my favorite president is fdr. man, if he ruled the country today..wait hes dead.
44. im catholic and im getting confirmed..against my will...i have no idea what i believe...everything has been shoved down my throat for so long that i sometimes forget how to think for myself
45. i love canopy beds.
46. i love cherry wood.
47. i love canopy beds made of out cherry wood. lol
48. the first book i ever learned to read was brown bear, brown bear, what do you hear?...great book..i suggest you read it lol
49. i just ate an entire pack of orange tic tacs :)
50. i came out to my dad on Thursday
51. i found out that my cousin is gay
52. jen and i have been together for 5 months
53. my favorite beatle is john lennon
54. george was always my least favorite beatle...still is
55. my birthday this year was the first birthday i can say that was actually happy and i owe that all to jen
56. my first ani song i ever heard (save wishin and hopin) was loom and it will always be my favorite
57. served faithfully was the 2nd song i ever heard....i listened to that song on repeat for weeks
58. i'm special (as in queer) lol
59. i hate smiley faces...but i still draw them all over jens history binder in attempt to cheer her up
60. camels and rhinos are my favorite animals
61. i once wrote a song about turkey during lent...
62. no, i dont do drugs...although you might think so
63. sometimes i wish i was butch....but the rest of the time..i think fuck it..i like how i am
64. ive seen ani difranco, paul mccartney, sheryl crow, and the goo goo dolls in concert
65. im ashamed that i saw sheryl crow...i only did it for my dad
66. all i want for christmas is for my buddy norelle to find herself a woman of her own :)
67. okay so thats not all i want....id rather like to have some time alone with jen so i could give her the rest of her xmas present *winks*
68. speaking of which...i love pussy :) lol
69. im a virgin..contrary to popular belief and very unfortunately
70. drive is one of my favorite songs because *wow*
71. i love having a clean room...im a neat freak but most of the time i dont have the time to be
72. im in the process of cleaning my room for the holidays right now lol
73. i take ballet and jazz dance at a studio and i take jazz, ballet, and tap at school
74. ive been taking jazz for 10 years...and i havent taken ballet since i was 6 and tap since i was 9
75. i suck at ballet
76. im not flexible at all, which it would be nice if i was and youd think iw ould be having taken dance for 12 years, but no...it sucks :P
77. i aww when moosen eat poor defenseless cabbages
78. im a fork bandit
79. i like fruitcake..okay so no i dont..inside joke x20 there
80. i like to say x#'s or x20 x infinite x another really big number you cant beat!!!
81. i love rotary dial phones..i need me one
82. im a righteous babe
83. i love the show M*A*S*H and i absolutely adore Alan Alda
84. i kissed a girl..wont change the world..but im so glad i kissed a girl *sings along*
85. i cant sing worth crap..and i was told by several of my friends that when i was in chorus and i sang i looked like a sad puppy dog :(
86. my favorite greek goddess is iris cos shes the goddess of rainbows..or artemis cos she was a big ol dyke
87. i used to have a big ol plant that crept all the way around the kitchen and everyone mourned when my mom cut it..and it hasnt grown back since
88. i have 3 elbows
89. 2 on my arms...and the 3rd is....nevermind :)
90. even ping pong tables can be romantic, when youre under them with that special someone
91. i suck at ping pong..last time i played, the ball bounced right off of me lol
92. ive never broken a bone..which a lot of people find surpising since i look so fragile but im really tuffffff
93. jen says im the toughest grrl she knows..i think shes lying
94. jen is *the* most beautiful person i have ever seen which says a lot cos i get to look at myself in the mirror everyday lol jk..and im kidding about me being so beautiful..defintely not about her being beautiful
95. i would turn down a massive orgy with melissa ferrick, julie wolf, and ani difranco for jen cos jens better than all of them put together
96. ive got a woman around my finger...aka my ring lol
97. im soooo tired
98. i got to see jen tonite
99. im using up these last ones cos im outta things
100. im a grrl :) lol just in case you didnt know