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[twilightlove]

i think this has been the most "lost" i've ever felt. school this past year has been the biggest struggle ever. it's been emotional and stressful and everything else. i'm still going through diff. medicines to try to find the right one that'll actually work.. it takes atleast a week to see if anything happens.. and that sucks. it just gets depressing when you can't find one that works and you keep struggling. i didn't want this so why do i have to go through this?? i have no idea what is going to happen with school after this semester. i wish i could take a semester off from it, and my mom actually agrees b/c of how it's been so far.. but insurance has to have me as full time. if i don't pass anatomy 2 this semester.. i'm considering dropping nursing.. it just gets so frustrating.. i really don't know what i'm doing with my life right now. it won't look good going into a nursing program if i had to re-take the classes over... i have to re-take anatomy 1 over, and now i may have to do the same with anatomy 2. i wish i could just find a damn medicine that works so i can finish up the semester well enough to pull of a C atleast.. i can't wait for freakin' summer.
oh yes and another thing to add to the pile.. i was suppossed to go down to charlotte,sc and meet up with noelle to run in the 10k or 1/2.. and well, go figure the one weekend i actually needed off.. i work night shift thursday, close friday, open saturday, and double sunday. kfhaklfjdfja!!!!!!!!!!!