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i know it seems like all i do is complain about being sick or something.. but that's all i seem to be able to do that this moment. today i had got into a depressing mode because i've been sick for so long and now that i've gone through atleast 15 diff. medicines in a period of few straight months.. some pretty strong ones and i'm still on 6-8 pills a day.. new stuff.. my body i think is giving up or rejecting any more meds. i got a fever today and couldn't eat and it sucked. i don't know what i'm going to do if this medicine doesn't work. he asked me and my mom if we wanted to take this head on and go strong and we said yes cause i'm so sick of it. and well, if this is head on and strong it scares me what's left to do if this doesn't work.. surgery.
but before i got sick today me, my mom and noelle went shopping so i could get a pair of good running shoes. getting them really makes me want to just get out there and run even though my lungs can't handle it. i get out of breath running to the phone; i wouldn't last long. noelle is going back to school on sunday.. she's coming back everyother weekend so we can train together. along with the sept. 2nd marathon at the beach, we're also doing the norfolk triathlon on jun. 2nd; there's exactly 3 months in between. it's going to be hard work and a lot of dedication but it's a lot easier when you have a group of people to train with for all this stuff. i can't wait to get back to it; i've missed it and have also become pretty depressed because i haven't been able to do a lot of the things i've wanted to lately.
i've lost almost 10lbs. because of all this medicine and being sick and not being able to eat anything and i feel great that i'm getting back into a good weight that i'm comfortable with myself in but it's not because of good reasons. being sick & meds. i wish it was more like training, working out and eating right. i know i'm going to gain some of it back when i first start training but that's ok cause i'm getting toned.
ok, i think i'm done venting.. oh yeah, if anyone is open to doing the triathlon also.. let me know!! it'll be funnnn :) and you'll get in amazing shappeeee :)
but before i got sick today me, my mom and noelle went shopping so i could get a pair of good running shoes. getting them really makes me want to just get out there and run even though my lungs can't handle it. i get out of breath running to the phone; i wouldn't last long. noelle is going back to school on sunday.. she's coming back everyother weekend so we can train together. along with the sept. 2nd marathon at the beach, we're also doing the norfolk triathlon on jun. 2nd; there's exactly 3 months in between. it's going to be hard work and a lot of dedication but it's a lot easier when you have a group of people to train with for all this stuff. i can't wait to get back to it; i've missed it and have also become pretty depressed because i haven't been able to do a lot of the things i've wanted to lately.
i've lost almost 10lbs. because of all this medicine and being sick and not being able to eat anything and i feel great that i'm getting back into a good weight that i'm comfortable with myself in but it's not because of good reasons. being sick & meds. i wish it was more like training, working out and eating right. i know i'm going to gain some of it back when i first start training but that's ok cause i'm getting toned.
ok, i think i'm done venting.. oh yeah, if anyone is open to doing the triathlon also.. let me know!! it'll be funnnn :) and you'll get in amazing shappeeee :)