Bored with life, really.
As the days go by, I just feel extremely bored with life. I don't see anything that much fun anymore. I don't know what it is, but the way I look at it... there's so much you can do, and so much that you can't do. Some things pull me down and it sucks. I hate it.
I feel like taking off sometimes, but then it's like, where am I going to go? Where am I going to work, get money? Unlike most of my deaf friends, I have to work to have an income. I don't get SSI or anything. So if I really wanted to go someplace else, I could only be gone for the weekend, the most. And the result of that -- life's boring.
What can you possibly do that's fun? Play video games? That gets boring over time. Hang out with friends? We run out of things to say or get bored of each other.
I guess what I'm trying to say is... I want to go on an adventure or at least feel like I'm excited to LIVE life at least. Because right now, I'm just dragging and counting the days as they go by. A day goes wasted and it's like... oh well. Tomorrow's another day to waste, even though I'd be getting things done.
I really imagined as if life was totally different somewhere else... and I blame TV too. They make me see other people have different superficial lives that makes me want to have lives like them. Crud. Feels unfair but I'm sure the life that I see on TV gets boring over time too.
Why are we even here... on Earth? Maybe I need some religion to appreciate life more, because right now, I definitely don't have it.
Lately I've been caught off guard reading something that has religious context in it, and a part of me feels like it's some sort of sign... Like I started reading a book on a teenage diary... just a typical diary right?? But no, this girl turns out to raised in a Christian family and here I am reading all sorts of Christianity stuff, and I'm just thinking... is that all just a coincidence or what??
I need something fun to do with my life. Anyone got ideas, let me know. Otherwise, have a good week everyone.
I feel like taking off sometimes, but then it's like, where am I going to go? Where am I going to work, get money? Unlike most of my deaf friends, I have to work to have an income. I don't get SSI or anything. So if I really wanted to go someplace else, I could only be gone for the weekend, the most. And the result of that -- life's boring.
What can you possibly do that's fun? Play video games? That gets boring over time. Hang out with friends? We run out of things to say or get bored of each other.
I guess what I'm trying to say is... I want to go on an adventure or at least feel like I'm excited to LIVE life at least. Because right now, I'm just dragging and counting the days as they go by. A day goes wasted and it's like... oh well. Tomorrow's another day to waste, even though I'd be getting things done.
I really imagined as if life was totally different somewhere else... and I blame TV too. They make me see other people have different superficial lives that makes me want to have lives like them. Crud. Feels unfair but I'm sure the life that I see on TV gets boring over time too.
Why are we even here... on Earth? Maybe I need some religion to appreciate life more, because right now, I definitely don't have it.
Lately I've been caught off guard reading something that has religious context in it, and a part of me feels like it's some sort of sign... Like I started reading a book on a teenage diary... just a typical diary right?? But no, this girl turns out to raised in a Christian family and here I am reading all sorts of Christianity stuff, and I'm just thinking... is that all just a coincidence or what??
I need something fun to do with my life. Anyone got ideas, let me know. Otherwise, have a good week everyone.