Sep 20, 2011 22:46
I am a mess, my life is in a mess and I am a mess emotionally. I am hurting for god knows what reason and my life is so lifeless that I don't know what to do. Where do I derive my source of energy from when there are moments of failure and I find myself crying about being alone and so helpless. But then again I am moodswinging like crazy so I am a PMS bitch now. Maybe this all won't make sense to me anymore. But anyhow recess week just sucks so damn much. I'm not productive. It's non stop proj meetings and all my tutees are asking for extra lessons. And no, I have not start revising for any midterms. I just want to hit town one day and not bother about all these commitments I have and just return home early one day, be in the best mood and just lie around and love my beautiful life. But that is not going to happen until the sem is over and we still have half of it left. I don't know whether I can pull through this. I don't want to cry about my results and feel so stupid all over again.
What do I do what do I do? I don't have the right to feel so unhappy and I don't have the time to let myself fall and then pick myself up again.
Fucking mess.