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I don't know why I'm writing on this thing, because I know nobody sees it, but I guess I'm bored. I haven't been feeling well in about two weeks and today I can't seem to do much but laze even though it's beautiful out and I would much rather be doing something fun with Adam. He's been taking good care of me, though. I never really thought that I could be this happy, as trite as that is. In relationships, things would be really good for about a year or year and a half and then I would hit that mark where I would realize that things weren't perfect. Maybe they weren't bad, but they weren't what I wanted. I would try to make it work anyway and force it, especially if I didn't have a real reason to be unhappy, but it was pretty much doomed from that point on. With Adam, things just keep getting better. I really do fall more in love with him everyday. I never believed that there could be one person who would fit with you more than any other (I still can't bring myself to say soul mate) but now I do. Nobody else could see everything about me, the good and the bad, and love me unconditionally no matter what I do. I can be completely myself and I never have even the smallest amount of doubt or unhappiness. I am so excited to get married. Not to mention, we thought he would get about 2k when he got out of the army, but it turns out it will be more like 20k after taxes. That means that we are starting to look for a house, which is a fun process. We are hoping to close one around the time of our wedding since our lease expires that month. I don't know if it will be possible or feasible to do that or if it is smarter to wait a year and live in the apartments again, but I just can't believe that it may be happening sooner than we thought. Sometimes, I really do think that things turn out for the best no matter what.