New Fic: Her Love
Title: Her Love
For: scrubsficchallng~Number 8: Just Jordan
Author: twilightchance
Fandom: Scrubs
E-mail: assultmylife@yahoo.com
Rating: PG
Pairing: Jordan/Elliot,Jordan/Perry,JD/Cox
Summary: Jordan's thoughts on love, hate, JD's and Perry's love and what could have been.
Notes: My fic for challenge 8. Hope you like. It's kinda angsty as Jordan tells her story. My second fic so far, so don't flame. I got the idea from a story I read by Elise Davidson. Though I don't remember the name. Oh well. Enjoy.
I hate him.
I hate how he makes his face light up when ever he enters the room. I hate how he smiles broadly when ever they talk to each other. I hate how he never has to make him say ' I love You ' like I had to. The fact that I hate him makes me hate myself for never being able to make him smile like he does.
I hate DJ for taking Perry away from me.
Our love was never a sturdy love; yet it still bound us together. No matter how many times I said ' it was over ' I always came crawling back. I always thought I was weak from doing that.
Then he came.
The stupid,pansy that Perry would would talk about constantly. Always bragging about what a capable doctor he was. Soon, thats all Perry talked about. ' JD did this ' or ' guess what newbie did today '. It made me sick. So I decided to take this matter into my own hands. I slept with his ' newbie ' and when I told him, he lost all expression in his eyes. " Well Jordaroo, You sleep with everybody so I don't care. ". My heart shattered a little when he said that, but I would never let him know.
When Jack was born, I was thrilled and delighted. Perry found out the child was his and he vowed he'd stay and help raise Jack. We were a family.
Then it happened.
He came home and sat down next to me, taking Jack into his arms. " I slept with him. " he stated, a look of guilt spread across his features. He looked at me, waiting for me to yell at him. I didn't know what to say, then it came. " About god damn time you big wus. " I blurted, " Jesus Perry! Do you think I care what you do with Sally! As long as you take care of our son, you can sleep with any damn pansy you want to. ". He smiled slightly and kissed me on the forehead before leaving out the door.
I cried all night.
For the next year I tried everything to make him love me again. Nothing worked. Not sex, not fighting. I even thought of doing ' the hanging bridge '. Nothing worked. For the past two years, I watched be in love. I stand near the nurse's counter, watching them hug and kiss. He never showed that much love for me in public. I could feel the anger quell inside me. Why couldn't I be loved like that. Was I allowed love?
Then she bumped into me.
All the medical charts she was holding clattered to the ground. DJ began to walk over, but Perry pulled him into a kiss.
" Frick on a stick! " she snapped, " I'm sorry Jordan. "
" No problem stick. " I muttered, bending down to help.
Was I allowed to love?
She blushed a dark red when I brushed her side. I chuckled at that. She quickly got up with her gathered charts and said her good-bye. I hurriedly grabbed hold of her hand. " W-w-what!? " She studdered. " Learn to have fun, stick. "
She blushed darkly again, never letting go of my hand. I could feel all my hatred for JD fade away as we walked.
Maybe. Just maybe....I could be loved and love.
A/N: Wow,deep huh. My submission for the scrubsficchalleng. Also the second fic I've written so don't smite me if you don't like it. I myself am very pleased. Please comment if you liked.
P.S.: The Hanging Bridge Effect is a old wives tale of which described as when a person who stands on a old,rickety bridge and sees a member of the opposite sex, they mistake the fast pace beating of their heart,which is do to the fear of falling,for true love. Neat huh.
Mood:
~ Aaaarrrrgghhh...
For: scrubsficchallng~Number 8: Just Jordan
Author: twilightchance
Fandom: Scrubs
E-mail: assultmylife@yahoo.com
Rating: PG
Pairing: Jordan/Elliot,Jordan/Perry,JD/Cox
Summary: Jordan's thoughts on love, hate, JD's and Perry's love and what could have been.
Notes: My fic for challenge 8. Hope you like. It's kinda angsty as Jordan tells her story. My second fic so far, so don't flame. I got the idea from a story I read by Elise Davidson. Though I don't remember the name. Oh well. Enjoy.
I hate him.
I hate how he makes his face light up when ever he enters the room. I hate how he smiles broadly when ever they talk to each other. I hate how he never has to make him say ' I love You ' like I had to. The fact that I hate him makes me hate myself for never being able to make him smile like he does.
I hate DJ for taking Perry away from me.
Our love was never a sturdy love; yet it still bound us together. No matter how many times I said ' it was over ' I always came crawling back. I always thought I was weak from doing that.
Then he came.
The stupid,pansy that Perry would would talk about constantly. Always bragging about what a capable doctor he was. Soon, thats all Perry talked about. ' JD did this ' or ' guess what newbie did today '. It made me sick. So I decided to take this matter into my own hands. I slept with his ' newbie ' and when I told him, he lost all expression in his eyes. " Well Jordaroo, You sleep with everybody so I don't care. ". My heart shattered a little when he said that, but I would never let him know.
When Jack was born, I was thrilled and delighted. Perry found out the child was his and he vowed he'd stay and help raise Jack. We were a family.
Then it happened.
He came home and sat down next to me, taking Jack into his arms. " I slept with him. " he stated, a look of guilt spread across his features. He looked at me, waiting for me to yell at him. I didn't know what to say, then it came. " About god damn time you big wus. " I blurted, " Jesus Perry! Do you think I care what you do with Sally! As long as you take care of our son, you can sleep with any damn pansy you want to. ". He smiled slightly and kissed me on the forehead before leaving out the door.
I cried all night.
For the next year I tried everything to make him love me again. Nothing worked. Not sex, not fighting. I even thought of doing ' the hanging bridge '. Nothing worked. For the past two years, I watched be in love. I stand near the nurse's counter, watching them hug and kiss. He never showed that much love for me in public. I could feel the anger quell inside me. Why couldn't I be loved like that. Was I allowed love?
Then she bumped into me.
All the medical charts she was holding clattered to the ground. DJ began to walk over, but Perry pulled him into a kiss.
" Frick on a stick! " she snapped, " I'm sorry Jordan. "
" No problem stick. " I muttered, bending down to help.
Was I allowed to love?
She blushed a dark red when I brushed her side. I chuckled at that. She quickly got up with her gathered charts and said her good-bye. I hurriedly grabbed hold of her hand. " W-w-what!? " She studdered. " Learn to have fun, stick. "
She blushed darkly again, never letting go of my hand. I could feel all my hatred for JD fade away as we walked.
Maybe. Just maybe....I could be loved and love.
A/N: Wow,deep huh. My submission for the scrubsficchalleng. Also the second fic I've written so don't smite me if you don't like it. I myself am very pleased. Please comment if you liked.
P.S.: The Hanging Bridge Effect is a old wives tale of which described as when a person who stands on a old,rickety bridge and sees a member of the opposite sex, they mistake the fast pace beating of their heart,which is do to the fear of falling,for true love. Neat huh.
Mood:
~ Aaaarrrrgghhh...