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Just sayin, but I don't like frat parties. -_- I DO, however, like Daryn's band. :-) Not drunken monkies. Or (almost) streaking 25-year-olds. Or almost getting carried up the stairs(O.O) But I do like rocking out to Eve 6, completely sober, at a frat party and screaming "TIE ME TO THE BED POST(<-lyrics, not an invitation)!" with my best friend. xD We're crazy. *warm, fuzzy feeling*
Justin's grad party was fun, but I regret I couldn't be more active..Involved? I dunno the right word for it. Mom told me his dad seemed really worried about me, since he found me sleeping on the fold up chairs behind the table. Not to mention, while playing volleyball I was really out of it. It was because of a headache- one of those, I-could-fall-down-completely-passed-out kind of headaches. I almost DID fall a few times.
I think I could possibly be one of the unhealthiest, healthy people. I drink lots of water, eat well enough, and try running a mile a week or work-out an hour. But my biology isn't made for it I guess. I have chest pains every three-four months that last for hours and hours. I used to get them in the night as a kid, but the first time I had it during the day, my doctor thought I was having a heart attack and had my mom rush me to the hospital. And the last 'attack' lasted six *hours*. They still don't know what it is causing them. I'm anemic, hypoglycemic(sp?), and I have a heart murmur... Not to mention my immune system is kind of weak (attendence record).
So, sometimes, when I start thinking about this I get sad. It seems very outrageous, because I'm young and I don't actually have anything terminally wrong with me. But what if something happens one day and I really have a heart attack instead of just these pains? Or it turns out there really is something seriously wrong with me? I think, what if my heart wouldn't be strong enough to handle the things I want in life? What if... could I die? But this is about the time I tell myself to buck up, and don't worry about. People can die at any time, but I don't need to get carried away. Today, today I'm alive- And I'd rather keep it that way.
But I feel very deeply that I am still worried and desperate to live and conquer mountains, influence as many people as possible before I go. Especially if that time is shorter.
Justin's grad party was fun, but I regret I couldn't be more active..Involved? I dunno the right word for it. Mom told me his dad seemed really worried about me, since he found me sleeping on the fold up chairs behind the table. Not to mention, while playing volleyball I was really out of it. It was because of a headache- one of those, I-could-fall-down-completely-passed-out kind of headaches. I almost DID fall a few times.
I think I could possibly be one of the unhealthiest, healthy people. I drink lots of water, eat well enough, and try running a mile a week or work-out an hour. But my biology isn't made for it I guess. I have chest pains every three-four months that last for hours and hours. I used to get them in the night as a kid, but the first time I had it during the day, my doctor thought I was having a heart attack and had my mom rush me to the hospital. And the last 'attack' lasted six *hours*. They still don't know what it is causing them. I'm anemic, hypoglycemic(sp?), and I have a heart murmur... Not to mention my immune system is kind of weak (attendence record).
So, sometimes, when I start thinking about this I get sad. It seems very outrageous, because I'm young and I don't actually have anything terminally wrong with me. But what if something happens one day and I really have a heart attack instead of just these pains? Or it turns out there really is something seriously wrong with me? I think, what if my heart wouldn't be strong enough to handle the things I want in life? What if... could I die? But this is about the time I tell myself to buck up, and don't worry about. People can die at any time, but I don't need to get carried away. Today, today I'm alive- And I'd rather keep it that way.
But I feel very deeply that I am still worried and desperate to live and conquer mountains, influence as many people as possible before I go. Especially if that time is shorter.