burned with desire

[twilight_doll11]

I am....not doing so hot.
I miss him.
i'm not afraid to admit it. it's okay.
I love him. I haven't seen him since thursday. when I used to see him every single day
it's normal
it just hurts
and I want to smoke. but I probably shouldn't
i just haven't got an outlet. nothing I can do about this but wait it out
and that's hard
I can do it. 
but I dont want to

if I had it my way
i'd call jason. explain that I kept my distance. that I want to see him tomorrow. 
or tonight if possible
and I want him to hear me out
and really get the truth from him.
I wish I wish
I'm only hanging on to a thread here.
but i'd give anything...