Memories Of A Broken Past
A long time has passed since I left. I have almost forgotten you. To recover, I sat down and thought. How can I get you back? Light from my heart shines, is this true love? With this love… I will never let them take you away or forget you.
It was on that first day that I met you. Your majestic brown eyes meet mine once and then you turn away. Who are you, I thought to myself. I want to meet you again… That’s all I can think of now. I reunited with you the next day after that. You lie in wait for us, veiled by the morning mist. We sit and take our seats till we arrive to learn. The day passes by and we part ways, not knowing that all of this would change by a simple ring.
But one day I had received a phone call and there begins my separation from you. I could no longer wait with you in the morning. I could only see you walk by me. I gave my good-byes and moved on. I would still live near you but then I heard my mother’s voice. “Don’t fall in love, your goal is to work not love.”
As the days go on I would watch you from my window, some days I would come out to walk you home. My mother calls me again but this time my heart falls. These words had a fearful power, “Am I moving…?” No, I will not leave! I must stay here or I will lose you forever.
Depression consumes my heart. It should’ve have been them. The pain was meant for them not me. Why do you smile… What about me? Who… should I love from now on? Something was born inside me. Something cold and dark. Sadness in me gave birth to an even greater depression. My endless sadness and hatred from losing you is his energy.
When I left you I would pray to see you and it came true. I was able to see you but you weren’t surprised to see me. You just laughed, ridiculed me and told me to go home with that friend of yours. Sorry, I mean our friend. That’s when the pain grew even more. The coldness inside my heart was let out and I began to become angry with you. I took your things and tied them, then I ran off and told on you. You were on the roof and I had gotten the both of you in trouble. I left after that and never returned. You called me later that day with much anger in your voice, “ Have I really hurt her that much?” We stopped talking after that.
First my heart fell, then my home, and last you. I lost both you and my heart. I lost everything. Everything…
I lost what…
No…
No…
That’s not it.
What I really lost was myself.
There is only one way. I don’t care if the pain grows. I will stop them and get everything back. Everything. I will see your charming smile, magnificent eyes, and hear your sweet innocent voice once again. It might take time but it will be worth it.
Exhausted with work, I return home. We will meet again…
You come sooner than I expected, simply seeing you revives my spirit. How could I forget, You, the one who would take my heart and repair it from the shattered pieces on the ground.
Time continues to pass by and yet we still stay in touch. Then one day I wrote to you and in response I find out that you do like me and maybe want to be with me. That response cleared all the depression in me and made room for the happiness and love that took its place. We go out one day and things don’t turn out as they were planned to but we still managed to have a great time. At the end I was able to hold you in my arms for a brief moment but I didn’t say how much I love you. I may not be perfect but I can still try my best to keep you happy. From that day we keep going. Even if I don’t win your heart, I will still keep trying until I do. But all you do to say is “Stop” and I will forever hold my love from you. It may devastate me but knowing that you are happy with whoever you choose to be, will guide my heart from the pain. We don’t know what will happen on the way but all we can do is wait. For now lets enjoy it while we can and treasure every moment of it. With much love from heart I give to thee.
Jay
It was on that first day that I met you. Your majestic brown eyes meet mine once and then you turn away. Who are you, I thought to myself. I want to meet you again… That’s all I can think of now. I reunited with you the next day after that. You lie in wait for us, veiled by the morning mist. We sit and take our seats till we arrive to learn. The day passes by and we part ways, not knowing that all of this would change by a simple ring.
But one day I had received a phone call and there begins my separation from you. I could no longer wait with you in the morning. I could only see you walk by me. I gave my good-byes and moved on. I would still live near you but then I heard my mother’s voice. “Don’t fall in love, your goal is to work not love.”
As the days go on I would watch you from my window, some days I would come out to walk you home. My mother calls me again but this time my heart falls. These words had a fearful power, “Am I moving…?” No, I will not leave! I must stay here or I will lose you forever.
Depression consumes my heart. It should’ve have been them. The pain was meant for them not me. Why do you smile… What about me? Who… should I love from now on? Something was born inside me. Something cold and dark. Sadness in me gave birth to an even greater depression. My endless sadness and hatred from losing you is his energy.
When I left you I would pray to see you and it came true. I was able to see you but you weren’t surprised to see me. You just laughed, ridiculed me and told me to go home with that friend of yours. Sorry, I mean our friend. That’s when the pain grew even more. The coldness inside my heart was let out and I began to become angry with you. I took your things and tied them, then I ran off and told on you. You were on the roof and I had gotten the both of you in trouble. I left after that and never returned. You called me later that day with much anger in your voice, “ Have I really hurt her that much?” We stopped talking after that.
First my heart fell, then my home, and last you. I lost both you and my heart. I lost everything. Everything…
I lost what…
No…
No…
That’s not it.
What I really lost was myself.
There is only one way. I don’t care if the pain grows. I will stop them and get everything back. Everything. I will see your charming smile, magnificent eyes, and hear your sweet innocent voice once again. It might take time but it will be worth it.
Exhausted with work, I return home. We will meet again…
You come sooner than I expected, simply seeing you revives my spirit. How could I forget, You, the one who would take my heart and repair it from the shattered pieces on the ground.
Time continues to pass by and yet we still stay in touch. Then one day I wrote to you and in response I find out that you do like me and maybe want to be with me. That response cleared all the depression in me and made room for the happiness and love that took its place. We go out one day and things don’t turn out as they were planned to but we still managed to have a great time. At the end I was able to hold you in my arms for a brief moment but I didn’t say how much I love you. I may not be perfect but I can still try my best to keep you happy. From that day we keep going. Even if I don’t win your heart, I will still keep trying until I do. But all you do to say is “Stop” and I will forever hold my love from you. It may devastate me but knowing that you are happy with whoever you choose to be, will guide my heart from the pain. We don’t know what will happen on the way but all we can do is wait. For now lets enjoy it while we can and treasure every moment of it. With much love from heart I give to thee.
Jay