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hey you. i finally put all of ur stuff into a "Stephen" bag, like Rory from Gilmore Girls. O, I found my book club list thing. i emailed u tonite. to explain my crazy call earlier. im really sorry about that. but last night was so scary, im still nervous about stuff. i need one of your hugs to make it better. i just have to wait 16 days for it. i never did mention, did i, that i was going to greet and wish u good bye in the same way that u greeted and wished me good bye: with a nice hug and a kiss on the cheek. im really torn about Anh, and what u told me about her Tuesday. my stomach sill squenches up about it. i saw my shrink today and she kinda helped, but i had much more to say. more time = better. i miss u. i always think of u right before i fall asleep every night. i carry ur student id with me everywhere. i wore ur hat today b/c i was still scared. the telepathic hug helped a bit, but by then i was reall embarrassed for bothering you. i wonder if uve emailed me back yet. prolly no, ur really busy. the found book club list is a huge weight off my shoulders. i can breath almost easy for the first time in 5 days. maybe the crazy pain was stress buildup. i just go crazy when ur not here, thats all. i get frantic and anxious. i must really be crazy, because im not crying right now and usually, when i write these to u i am. o studio 60 left us at a cliff hanger tonight. it wasnt nice. and a random, unexplained until more than half way thru cliff hanger. and the episode next monday promises to be especially stupid. i got out of the APES test tomarro cause i forgot to bring home my book but Mr. Heun yelled at me for not being up to date on the reading. im so fucking woozy today that i told him i hadnt done the saaigned reading. still dry eyes. im tired. now its only 15 days till i see you. my head hurts. it feels like someones blending a smoothie in my head, but not cold, warm, even hot. what the fuck. huh again, sorry for the weird call. im still scared. whatever. ill talk to you soon.
he hangs up
i love you, i whisper