honestly
not a whole lot to update about...
the job is going well (knock on wood/thank God)
sav-on - YES that is how it is spelled! - is fun, most of the time, and they close at 6 on weekdays ;) so it's nice. and 3 on saturdays! this means not so many hours, but a job AND a life! woohoo, mission accomplished.
i've only been a working girl for 2 weeks
this past weekend was really good, but not for any of the normal reasons. it was terrific because i felt so much all at once on saturday night, and it wasn't because of anything particularly sad or happy - it was just because of life... sounds emo, i know. but here's the deal. saturday night was lauren's last time to perform on the rhs stage - and while i know that she will move to "bigger and better stages" - it's crazy to think that it's all really coming to an end. i saw the football season end... then wrestling... then basketball... now theatre. it's like i finally get that this is it. in 2 months, i will no longer be in high school. everyday, that becomes scarier and more exciting and sadder. can something truly be all of those things at once?
so the point is, i cried. saturday, in a theatre full of people, i cried like i haven't cried in a while. the play was fantastic, but the best part was the "shout-out" portion. lauren OF COURSE ;) gave me a shout-out... and then i pretty much broke down. every cast member thanked their families, friends, Mrs. Wilcox, and usually God - and every single one of them thanked each other. i saw the love that those people had for each other that no one shows on a regular basis. i saw tears and shaky smiles and girls worried that their mascara was going to run down their faces. all in all, it kind of restored my hope in people all over again. it restored my heart, in the fact that i have a best friend that God truthfully gave to me and blessed me with. i knew all at once that no matter what happened, i had my Savior and i had the best, best friend i could ask for... this was the greatest feeling - especially after the drama of the past week.
so, honestly.
i love "honestly".
and i love that i cried on saturday night. it wasn't because of anything you can touch - no, it was something you could feel. i don't know why i let people get to me. i forget how amazing i have it, and i just focus on the crap that seems to pop up constantly. last week, i would have graduated IMMEDIATLEY, just in order to get away from some people that had hurt me. now... well, i feel a little more ready to leave... but still that sadness that lets me know that i'm leaving something that meant a lot to me. you'll probably hear me say "i'm so ready to get out" at least twice a week until may 20th; but yeah... rarely do i really mean that.
sorry this was long
i just wanted to say this
and hopefully when you have moments like this, you take them for what they are and you hold on to them, at least for a minute, and you feel. feel.
♥
the job is going well (knock on wood/thank God)
sav-on - YES that is how it is spelled! - is fun, most of the time, and they close at 6 on weekdays ;) so it's nice. and 3 on saturdays! this means not so many hours, but a job AND a life! woohoo, mission accomplished.
i've only been a working girl for 2 weeks
this past weekend was really good, but not for any of the normal reasons. it was terrific because i felt so much all at once on saturday night, and it wasn't because of anything particularly sad or happy - it was just because of life... sounds emo, i know. but here's the deal. saturday night was lauren's last time to perform on the rhs stage - and while i know that she will move to "bigger and better stages" - it's crazy to think that it's all really coming to an end. i saw the football season end... then wrestling... then basketball... now theatre. it's like i finally get that this is it. in 2 months, i will no longer be in high school. everyday, that becomes scarier and more exciting and sadder. can something truly be all of those things at once?
so the point is, i cried. saturday, in a theatre full of people, i cried like i haven't cried in a while. the play was fantastic, but the best part was the "shout-out" portion. lauren OF COURSE ;) gave me a shout-out... and then i pretty much broke down. every cast member thanked their families, friends, Mrs. Wilcox, and usually God - and every single one of them thanked each other. i saw the love that those people had for each other that no one shows on a regular basis. i saw tears and shaky smiles and girls worried that their mascara was going to run down their faces. all in all, it kind of restored my hope in people all over again. it restored my heart, in the fact that i have a best friend that God truthfully gave to me and blessed me with. i knew all at once that no matter what happened, i had my Savior and i had the best, best friend i could ask for... this was the greatest feeling - especially after the drama of the past week.
so, honestly.
i love "honestly".
and i love that i cried on saturday night. it wasn't because of anything you can touch - no, it was something you could feel. i don't know why i let people get to me. i forget how amazing i have it, and i just focus on the crap that seems to pop up constantly. last week, i would have graduated IMMEDIATLEY, just in order to get away from some people that had hurt me. now... well, i feel a little more ready to leave... but still that sadness that lets me know that i'm leaving something that meant a lot to me. you'll probably hear me say "i'm so ready to get out" at least twice a week until may 20th; but yeah... rarely do i really mean that.
sorry this was long
i just wanted to say this
and hopefully when you have moments like this, you take them for what they are and you hold on to them, at least for a minute, and you feel. feel.
♥