ughh
Hey Nick,
it's my last day off till... i'm not sure, hopefully next sunday. the weather outside is wonderful, so you'd think i would want to go enjoy it. but honestly, I just want to lay in bed and sleep, but at the same time I do not want to be here at all. I can not stand her. At all. I don't think the sight of someone has irritated me this badly in quite a while. She's so a brat, and daddy just hands her everything. I can't wait till this lease is up so that we can get out of here. Her existence annoys me. I don't want to be here when she is. I don't even care that the cat keeps chewing her wire, I hope she chews through he wifi wire. I really shouldn't let that... girl... get to me so badly. It's just hard to control any and all anger. I don't think I've had this much problems with anger. although I haven't been on my medicine in a while. and i'm glad im not on it, i'm glad I'm not getting any withdraw symptoms anymore. If given the choice I wouldn't get back on it wither. But I get angry/frustrated so easily. One little thing may set me off, and then everything will just make i worse. I obviously never act on my emotions, but I seriously feel like breaking shit when I get in one of those moods. And crying. It's awful. I wish I knew how to deal with this. I wish that my crazy dr was still at UTSA. I wish she had told me she was leaving at least. It sure was an awful surprise finding that out. It's almost like losing a friend. I don't know who to tell my problems to, who can give me second opinions and solutions. ughh. i need to get out for a bit,I really hope things start getting better here... although I doubt it. She's been causing drama before she even moved in. I'll talk to you again soon. I really need to start writing to you again more often. I'm going to start getting dressed.
I love you,
always and forever
it's my last day off till... i'm not sure, hopefully next sunday. the weather outside is wonderful, so you'd think i would want to go enjoy it. but honestly, I just want to lay in bed and sleep, but at the same time I do not want to be here at all. I can not stand her. At all. I don't think the sight of someone has irritated me this badly in quite a while. She's so a brat, and daddy just hands her everything. I can't wait till this lease is up so that we can get out of here. Her existence annoys me. I don't want to be here when she is. I don't even care that the cat keeps chewing her wire, I hope she chews through he wifi wire. I really shouldn't let that... girl... get to me so badly. It's just hard to control any and all anger. I don't think I've had this much problems with anger. although I haven't been on my medicine in a while. and i'm glad im not on it, i'm glad I'm not getting any withdraw symptoms anymore. If given the choice I wouldn't get back on it wither. But I get angry/frustrated so easily. One little thing may set me off, and then everything will just make i worse. I obviously never act on my emotions, but I seriously feel like breaking shit when I get in one of those moods. And crying. It's awful. I wish I knew how to deal with this. I wish that my crazy dr was still at UTSA. I wish she had told me she was leaving at least. It sure was an awful surprise finding that out. It's almost like losing a friend. I don't know who to tell my problems to, who can give me second opinions and solutions. ughh. i need to get out for a bit,I really hope things start getting better here... although I doubt it. She's been causing drama before she even moved in. I'll talk to you again soon. I really need to start writing to you again more often. I'm going to start getting dressed.
I love you,
always and forever